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- the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

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2006-03-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

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-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

QuiZ

2006-03-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

[b]Slow and Steady[/b]

[img]http://images.blogthings.com/howdopeopleseeyouquiz/serious.jpg[/img]

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

[b]How Do People See You?[/b]

[url]http://www.blogthings.com/howdopeopleseeyouquiz/[/url]

and so they do feel surprise. not once, not twice, but thrice...

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Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Sense of Humor - 71.4% 2. Financial Situation - 69.2% 3. Open-Mindedness - 63.6% 4. Adventurousness - 58.3% 5. Varied Interests - 57.1%	1. Insecurity - 61.5% 2. Appearance - 55.6% 3. Pessimism - 50% 4. Vanity - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Sense of Humor - Girls are attracted to people with a good sense of humor. Be sure to put yours on display! Financial Situation - You've got your financial situation under control, which is a very desirable quality. Be careful to avoid girls who are only interested in your money. Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available girls. Adventurousness - You are willing to try new things and be spontaneous. You want to get out there and really live, and you will attract people with a similar love of life. Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of girls.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Insecurity - Your insecurity makes you doubt yourself, but you must learn to love and trust yourself if you want to succeed in dating. Appearance - Devoting a greater effort at making good first impressions is a must. Try to be fit and develop a style if you want to catch a girl's attention. Pessimism - Too much cynicism can be a turn-off. Try to see the brighter side of things and people will be attracted to your positive outlook. Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial.
Take This Dating Quiz

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***The Keys to Your Heart***

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

maybe... just maybe...

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***Your Five Variable Love Profile***

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is medium.
You probably have had a couple significant loves.
And you may have even had your heart broken.
But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test
http://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/

hmm.. ya

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

e world is quiet

2006-03-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

and here the tales ends. well, did it ever begin? nope. not at all.

and so, there was no running races, no more doubts, no more questions, no more ponderings... just still, it's still tiring.

i've been pretty tired about this race. and so once the limit is reached, i've done the straight forward thing. Despite the fact that it is really unsincere to settle it online, it is done.

no more maze, no more twist, no more hopes. just a straight forward thing.

and the case is closed.

XXX

and now, i ponder again. it's already back to being polite and courteousy, dripping with it.

maybe this is just my way of masking everything. to wear the smiley mask and parade around the world.

the world seem oddly quietly tonight. so is the heart.

and tonight, the moon seem awfully round and lonly.

things change. they really do.

XXX

sometimes i wonder, it's been an long time since i last feel like this. being so horrible venomly correct and polite, been oddly calm. been 6 long years since K.S merge with god.

guess, in a way, not everything changed after all.

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

simple minded: 只因为你、我情不自禁想呵护着你

2006-03-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

been recently listening to zhang dong liang's song - zhi yin wei ni. The lyrics goes like this:
只因为你、我情不自禁闭上眼睛；心里想了想、还是你；不让你离开我的手心；呵护着你；幻想着、紧抱在我怀里。。。
but then again, it looks hard to achieve? (use unicode encoding too see e chinese words lah)

XXX

quite clueless abt wat to do now. hmm.. i reckon. people who were aware are like saying:
Guy 1: it's called [tiao qi lai mai]
Gal 1: [you zhi zhe shi jing cheng]
Gal 2: you need to work harder to show tt u care n concern
Gal 3:
Gal 4:

me? i'm just clueless. afterall, listening to wat people say dun really help at all. tt's y at times like these when it's absolutly important to just calm down n think. other ppl just make me confused.

then again, i afraid the smartest ppl in the world will not give me any comments to help. i personally feel that these people are the best. but hey, do ya guys notice? such ppl r usually girls. men, just enjoy putting on the Mr. Fix It Hat n give weird ideas. (tt's y gal 3 n 4 do not plant any weird ideas in e my mind.

as gal3 would say. the wall coming down. maybe? after all, i'm pretty much trust wat she has to say. gal4 is even wiser n just listens :P

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i ponder a bit now and then. it's really complex to figure what everybodies' grey matter is thinking. i'm pretty complex at many stuff. but then, i'm still really simple at this particular issue. work can be complex. sch can be complex. office politics can be complex. backstabbing can be complex.

but then, i prefer this issue not to be complex at all. pretty simple will be great. you see, the things ways r going. this doesn't seem to be going on fine.

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then again, who ever say liking some1 is ever simple. even if something fruitful turns out. what will happen next? clueless...

life just an't simple anymore. i'm tired. really tired over this

只因为你、我情不自禁闭上眼睛；心里想了想、还是你；不让你离开我的手心；呵护着你；幻想着、紧抱在我怀里。。。

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

LIARS SUCK@!

2006-03-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

hello... pls FUCK off? Liars are really whores. DAMM YOU!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

polite = piss n upset n vexed

2006-03-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

damm it! his royal highness just relieased that he have been in an extremely polite mood today. in msn, the language he used to communicate with people was so EXtremely polite. in actual fact, it seems that he was using proper english all the while. even when he was speaking to people, it was difference.

the tone was different. the manner he speak was different. it was too formal, too polite, filled with a professional touch, and dripping with venom. but then again, his stage and the world, seem to dim-witted to reliease it. then again, the only people his royalness knows who can actually catch up with his train of thoughts dun really exist in abundance. a hand, and prob 2 fingers. TWO.

prob JJ n [F]&Ns will know. just prob. they're prob the most intelligent human beings on earth. prob even in the entire solar system. maybe even the entire universe and all it's parallel sister universe.

but then again, oh... nevermind. seriously, his royal highness needs a mind reader. maybe then, it will then be a great easier to relate everything out. sucks...

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so now you know. when his royal highness goes all out to being polital, polite, he's actually extremly vexed, annoyed, pissed about something, and obviously terrible upset.

so why is his royal highness feeling shitty? wow... like it's the greatest event on earth. his royal highness is feeling shitty... farK... there again, he is dripping with sacaristism again. (maybe i really should swear less, someone do say i swear a lot online --> at least i dun swear tt much in real life[but then again, swearing is indeed fun]).

he is vexed, because he is upset. he is upset because he is feeling silly. he is silly because he thinks he has done something tupid and is feelinf vexed, upset, silly and stupid. cased closed.

trival stuff just messed him up. major stuff like project datelines, exams nearing do not even as much as stir him to awaken. it's just like how he do in exams. tough nuts, he scores and aces it. easy Qs.. he flobs... wat's wrong?

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yeah... welcome to the world of Mr. PMS, where being polite = pissed!
and i will turn the world upside down (hmm.. this sound familiar? lol... well.. i leech it from a friend's msn nick...lol)

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

hmmm...fishy bonus? roaR?! - ponders...

2006-03-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

his royal highness been actually wanting to blog a great deal recently. there's a load of random thoughts flowing in, and the urge just rocketed high. full of overflowing emotion and thoughts... there's always a need to release it. he had wanted to blog a few days ago; wanted to blog one day after tt; wanted to blog yesterday; wanted to blog this morning. but then again, his royal highness didn't do it.. cos.. when the thoughts come chunking in... theres' no computer at hand when he was on his royal tourage...

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been living life in a slightly positive mood. at least, tt helped a lot instead of just being sianz and depress about the world of living.

heres a new philosophy his royal highness derived:

life sux. life simply sux.
if another good happens in life, we can consider it a bonus.
but then again, dun look forward to bonus,
cos then again, life ultimately sux.
life sux.

and so, bearing this school of thought in mind, he been living life as it is since monday! with bright yellow shirt, he braved to face the world.

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from the previous post. tues was boring.. his royal highnes was at home. wed was excellant. just walking from central lib..to sci to get some old chang kee. and he has his 1st bonus! he saw bella! haha~ chatting when walkin the long walk to lect was actually fun! all gals brightened his day!

thurs was somehow... hmmm boring in the morning.... when top up his supply of the colgate sweets that he simply loves.. then, the quence for e bus was nil.. noone at all..

after he got back from 7-11... the chain of ppl drag all the way to e mrt esclator...wtf...

oh..did he mentioned he return a chain of keys too when he found it to a flippono maid when she forgot she has left it there? haha... quite funny to help some1 out who can't seem to speak english too... lol... cos his royalness was having a hard time telling her she forgot to take her bunch of keys... but all went well after tt. well.. maybe not..cos his royal highness had to chase her to tell her that... :(

went for the lecture... late... happen to see more bonus =) hehe! kawaii K!

not to mention the after lect lesson... more bonus. it seem the "life sux symdrone" had made his royal highness less tongue tied when he saw tigeresss~ blissed!

a good day indeed. @ times, his royalness is easily sastified...

sometimes he wonder.. y he can be so comfortable crapping.. chatting.. teasing a lot of other ppl around... but terriblly trap in the "cat caught his tongue situation" in front of tigeress... hmmm...

ponders...

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hmm.. friday... more bonus? hahaha!!! nah... finally went out with JJ!!!! hmm.. JJ dun equal lim jun jie okay... as a matter of fact... put my best friend with the singer... my friend will make lin jun jie pale in comparsion in looks.. hehe!

moron's still as happy going as usual! it's great to see jj n catch with him for so long. not much change in him.. still as siaoz as usual. still in the "single man" club. and very little to do so if he still rots in the freaky army. haha!!

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eh... was actually quite surprised that quite a no of ppl reads this blog. yet again, not 1 of the readers curses at his royal highness bad command of the english language. but then, everyone remebers him cursing... this is so wtf?

but then, what matters is the fact that ppl do read this, even when they really tag or comment tag a lot. still fine nevertheless... as long specific reads :P

this means YOU! YOU! and YOU! but then again, let's take the men out of the picture again! but at least tigeress reads once in while. and it did help to clear some doubts coming from his royal hignhess~ =)

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his royal highness smiles... @ tigeress...
p/s: time to watch tsubasa chronicles movie: and xxxHOLIC movie loh!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

monday was good... let's hope it lasts

2006-03-08T02:45:00.000+08:00

monday was actually a good start of the day. the usual monday was marked by an excellant morning with my favourte tutor, ivy! hehe! cheeky cheeky king! not only is my tutor an excellant motivation to come for lessons, she's a good tutor! at least, i learn more from here then my lecturers. let's not forget the kawaii tutorial mate, C. hehe~ good to look at. i'm not interested, but looking at gd stuff keeps the day going bright!

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slack for eons after ivy's lesson. skip lunch for the love of proj research. or rather... i skip lunch due to people phobia. eating with lots of ppl seem to turn me off these days.. well. went.. staying in the lib did some good after all. meet up with fiona~ she's [F]&Ns friend` slack a bit. chill a bit. she commented i look fitter... wow... it's another reason to feel gd on the day. hehe~ exchange phone numbers after she knew i'm a nm maj too~ so cool! finally another person who does my maj too! cool! cnm rock!

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race off to canteen after mugging with guys. y was i muggin with the guys? apparently, there was no space @ "the other table". well.... disappointing... was it an excuse given to me? i wonder... maybe it is... maybe i;m just too sensative... maybe.. this maybe that.. fark.

mugging witht the guys cheer me up then the other table anyway. christ was entertaining! n of course, we did his usual fav friendster activity. haha. so~ christ is very interested in tigeress friend. haha! so gd to see christ getting over his crap influation with some other.

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grab a egg sandwich. did i say i like sandwich with egg, luncheon meat, ham or tuna? Oh.. i dun really like cheese by the way.. just fyi.. haha~ (--> hu cares? lol... but then..just in case..).
ran into jinxun who justs get more n more beautiful with the days~ hehe~

did the usual, tap her other should n walk the other way. just seeint her turn around make me laugh n cheer up! yes, friends are wonderful! esp the nicer ones!

came back, and meet jinxun again. haha! and she was saying. her friend thinks i'm cute!!! woww!! (okay... those of u hu wan to puke can puke.... i dun really care.. lol--> this is my blog! haha! shoo shoo!~:) )

not bad... fiona n jinxun made my day!!!! wowow!!!!

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grab the nciest ipod skin ever.... at a cheap deal. got home, clean e ipod~ slip on the sexy skin, and make a clear plastic cover on the screen n mouse! wow! i love musiC!

XXX

oh ya.. did i mention ALL of my friends r pretty?
yes... ALL of them... so people.. are u jealous? wahahaha

XXX

okay.. wednesday here. hope it dun suX.. n hu knows. thurs might sux after all too... lol... so will friday... maybe not?

XXX

lifes gd for not. but yes.. i still yield for the untouchable; the one who's there, yet who's presence is never feel....

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

downgrading

2006-03-05T01:38:00.000+08:00

and his royal highness argees that all the funny ppl reigns in nus fass... to be fair, maybe a small portion of them branch out to sci, and engin... haha

made new friends. well, actually... friends of friends. nice ppl. chat from heaven to earth, from earth to hell... then all e way back to heaven to earth, from earth to hell ......... (u get the pt.. dummy). it's really that there's such an invention called the msn. on the medium, chatting is possible other then using the silly phone... or the silly snail mailing!

at least, ya can bond up with new friends! hehe!

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hmmm... kathy is 20? haha! happy birthday.. old old old old old gal... how do i now? lol... peeps.. just check her msn msg. DarN... wasted 2 wholes lines on her... ... wasted ah!

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and so, after the 2 lines wasted on kathy... his royal highness decides to blog on something constructive... just wat shall he blog on? more crap? more sad stuff? or wat? maybe more tigeress? haiz...

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wierd shit.. it seems that then norton may be the best antivirus n system maintence out int the market. however, the shitty subscriptions issues from norton is pure nonsenese. let's comment on the lastest systemworks 2006. the 1st version released can't do actication by phone. this suck x 01

the second version fix the problem. but it's sloWWW n lags the system!!!

and now.. the second version has a software update.. tt renders the sub useless... there's a renewal shit. so in a fix of anger n sianzness tt norton has manage stop hackers like his royal highness again from using theri products... he's uninstalls norton and goes fully zonealarm n trendmicro. hmpf!

no more 3 firewalls... with 2 firewalls.. he feels so naked.... time to do less hacking... :(

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ah... some1 i know in a bad mood. well... wat else is it abt? let's not assume makes an ASS of U n Me. time to cheer ppl up loh.. even when his royalness is neither in a gd mood. tough. life is tough.

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where's tigeress... hmm....

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

colors center

2006-03-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

this is so weird... his royal highness just relieased that he has been wearing black shirt for this whole week when he was doing his laundry (yes... he does his own landuary) ... well... almost all black... it's as if he's preparing for some mourning season.

not long ago, his royal highness was flipping some books in the royal library of lonlynessism, and saw this color coding book. it says that color reflects the state of mind of the person choosing it. it means that, at certain times, the color chosen by the user at a certain time, will clearly reflect his current mood.

in addition, these was this ancient script on clothes coloring choosing... the color of clothings wore by the wearer projects to the world as an outlet of exactly how he is feeling inside. and to the horror of his royal highness... this week was generally all black, as opposed to the first few weeks when something big happened where his attire was actually completely with yellow, orange and bright color robes... hmmm....

conclusion: this is an unstable week for his royal highness...

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hmmmm... his royal highness has no idea wat he can do now, or wat he cannot do. he's totally clueless. sometimes, hotness, coldness strikes him in a !@#$%^&*()...

yes... what can he do now to improve the odds and improve the situation? what can he do to liven it up? in other words, he's totally feeling like zchen's song tt rose him to fame.

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some1 used to mentioned tt religion is a gd wat to know how to do things. his royal highness supposed so... he guess... now, a delimma strikes... which one to he turn to? budhism as appeared on his royal id? or the church where he hops occasionally? hehe... catholic church? protestant church? hmmm... so many options... which to chose? lol

XXX

bored... beach anyone?
movie anyone? no one? someone? pls? bored!!!
totally boredoom!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

hot? cold? y not lukewarm or hot? pls?

2006-03-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

now... tt's what i feel... look at the newest avatar on the left!! (u dunce...). been physically tired n emotionally tired these days... not too great a deal. but hey, at least, i shed some pounds.(tt's a lie..damm it).

now figuring out a way to occuply the space beside the avatar picture. what shall i put? after all... it's really doubtful the VIPs will read anyway. (oops... of course [M]&Ms n [F[&Ns are welcome to read... haha juudee too!)

days been going on a hot and cold basis. extreme ends. either totally responive or totally cold and not responive? let's hope it's just the drag of the killer mid terms. let's just assume the issues of other personal matters. let's just hope it's the lot of handing over church matters. let's just hope tt everyone is buzy and really stress up?

maybe it's a lie? maybe i just think too much... maybe not? these thoughts continue to ponder when i had great company with [F]&Ns today on the bus to muggified(work lol) central lib after a splendid get together the [M]&Ns, [C]TE, n boring guys... I can't help but noticed the gathering was motive based. but then again, that's another story...

i'm tired... really tired. and then i ponder again. if friend of [F]&Ns could strive on so long waiting, why can't i do the same thing? after all... every1 had a great 8-9 months in sch?

well... time to do what the book says.. improve myself esteem!!!! haha!!!

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now... i wonder... if i know too much at some times. things i should really know just happen to fly to my ears... stuff that i shouldn't really know. today's lunch was so obviously a heavily motivated based lunch. an intential based lunch. the theme was "simply watching" haha.

see? tt y i dun wan to know too much. tiring.

XXX

saw lots of possession control actions going on these days from ppl. e.g who r u with? where r u? why do u this with? to Whom is tt? how come he did this?

saw lots of wussie actions. ppl with balls so small it's like mosquito bites. E is unhappy with R's blog comments n scolds M. R thinks E is weak and is a totally wussie taking on M. pathetic.

saw an interesting clip on how media protrays women as objects. as a thing. as a possession. and how the media shapes man to think in this way.

just imagine if media ads to this: "ur pen is limp.slimy.perky.pointy.shaggy.too far apart.too A cup. too small and only 2 inchs" --> the last word 2 inch earn roaring laughter from the lecture.. lol. funny documentary show.

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the song playing is simply too nice!
Anastias OST - Richard Marx * Donna Lewis - At The Beginning

the first english song that i really really love b4 BSB cult came it. the lyrics goes somthing like this: well... i just show the part i love best

richard marx:
"no one told me, i was going to find you.
unexpected, wat u did to my heart

when i lost hope, you were there to remind me
this is the star...."

.... with this.. now u know wat i meant by hot n cold. (let's see who is smart to guess this out)
my life n ans is a riddle... my philosophy..

[F]&Ns indeed is a smart gal. highly possible the only 1 who can exactly read my mind. and i ponder on ur words mine [F]&N, the great advisor!

"knew there was somebody somewhere.
i've in love in the dark"

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now.. it's prob time to munch some chocs..? nah...

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ah... i remember.. happy to bump into a another pretty friend of tigeress today~ hehe. but then again, of course tigeress is better...

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

riddles n more riddles... KIDs...

2006-03-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

riddles... riddles... all over... tt's his royal highness's life for now. some1 asks him a qs, he gives a riddle as an ans. some1 asks him another, he gives another riddle as an ans. alternative, he gives an truthfully answer which is warped with a lot unneccessay content.

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life is a riddle. he is living in a riddling world. she is living in a riddling world. we are all living in a riddle world. but then again, who isn't? and his royal highness ponders...

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and then. murphys laws came into play. thurs supposed to be an excellant day. cos thurs = js lecture~ and it's more time to hang around with his harem of friends. [M]&Ms, [C]TEs, Ks, lovely tigeress and so many more fun ppl:P minus the boring guys..(too bad if ya reading guys..lol)

and then, ivle posted this: sorrie. tml is proj week... no lect. pls do not come to lect tml. i'm like WTF is goin on? thurs is supossed to be a sweet day. where i bother to put on jeans, instead of the usual sloopy attire... damm it...

but then again... maybe it's gd? who knows? let's see how tml goes...

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n then, the empath powers of his royal highness kicks into action. the world is feeling miserable. everyone is feeling shaky. things are breaking. gd friends are feeling sad. the great saddess is making his royal highness feel sad. more couples he knows off break up... or are intending to break up.

what is the world becoming?

and now... some1 who likes my friend is jealous of me? i'm like, what the hell? i really dun need this loh. enought shit of my own to settle. and i got to handle a guy whose jealous of me? sometimes, men are really fragile, insecure creatures. seriously, if he has the balls to make my dear friend upset by his jealousy, he should make a stronger stand himself. stop running the bush with my friend and declare his intentions loud.

end the torment he's giving my friend. love her fully. and not probe n probe endlessly when he's is not ready to commit. i mean, you like my friend. my friends obviously is obviously emotionally attached to u. and u torture her with ur outragous jealousy.

you emotionally abused her. i sometims wonder. y do she even bother to explain her position. it's darn obvious she's not the one who enjoys being accused and wrong. if i know tt when i know her for 7 months... when u know each other for longer times... sometimes is obviously wrong..

so dude... if ya reading this.... gather some balls.. n do the wrong time. games are for kids... grow up. or u will lose her! i will NOT let my friend be abused!

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but then again, what am i to say? apparently, i'm in the same position too? i'm jealous of an unseen entity, an army kid. wtf! where's the confidence i have in myself? hello, confidence, are u there? yes.... when things dun go the way they wan it to have, they doubt themselves... they worried.. they feel really insecure and just fall from heaven...

sighs.... tiger tiger tigeress~ i yield for ya...

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

jealousy... wat's wrong with me! 酸溜溜

2006-02-26T15:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm... quite a few days since the blogging fever has die down... but then again... the fever is back to strike his royal highness... Well... actually, the blog instinct woke when his royal highness was in the sch lib with tigeress and friends... and he was rapidly firing away words on the blog, until he was distracted now and then by laughter, occasion glimpse at interesting ppl. and when the time was there to leave, he forgot he was blogging and pressed the little "X" button on the internet explorer! hmpF....

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friday was an excellant day. a gd start with a mid term tt could actually see the possiblities to pass it. a early end to the early lect, and a lunch trip that encountered beautiful ppl. not to mention an excellant day in the lib filled with laughter.

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the urge to blog came when a phone call rang on tigeress' friend's phone(yup, it's such a long and distance relationship). it's tigeress' friends's bf on the line. apparently, the chap was feeling extremely insecure and jealous... tt the stardeeing area was noisy with a lot of male voices... it was the beginning of an arguement? hm... well... best not to comment on tt. however, one thing is certain... POSSESSIVE nature or all men has taken root. and his royal highness ponder...

and then, his royal highness, being the muddlehead that he's always was, offered choc. it's such a blessing that nothig else happen... else his royal highness will have his head rolling.... why so? cos in a heated day, with a possible arguement on the phone, offering chocs will raise the temper torolations of a person. phew... the friend actually smile... lol~ well then again, his royal highness is quite happy tt his new friend's not in a sour mood... at least tt's what he assumes (assume makes an ASS of U n ME.. :P)

XXX

so the day went on with lots of stabbings from the 3 friends on his poor royal highess. with the royal protector [M]&Ms buzy with meetings, the great [C]TE n [F]&N in lala land mode, he was left vitimized by then 3 friends... lol

unbelievable, the tigeress actually championed in the assisaition... leading the stabs in scores... was a little surprise.. but then again.. hmmm.. haiz..?

XXX

more phone calls came in from all over to tigeress phone. the lib room was quiet. with the excellant his royal highness has, he just can't help hearing. and feeling annoyed abt the voice calling over. ANNOYED! very ANNOYED. and then some1 of the 3 mentioned a name. BLASTED.

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i believe, the feeling is call jealousy... extrene jealousy...

mOoNlIgHt rObBiE，月之『风、雨旋律』篇：喜欢看你，走路那充满自信说话时候，你那专注的眼神；凶凶的表情里，带有那七分温柔三分天真的神情。。。

【酸酸酸！！！酸溜溜的。。。好的，人人争先恐后枪着要。我要你要他也要。。。真他妈的！！！是我的！！！】*我虽然心太急，但更害怕错过你*

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

keys... everywhere... memories unlocked...

2006-02-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

there's thing weird problem with his royal highness. his royalness simply links memories, be it good or bad with things, names, songs, words, and wat so ever he can lay his mind on. take the song "kai bu liao kou" for example, he links with his days in jc where he walks home daily with his fellow buddy from tpjc to tamp interchanege.

nevertheless, when he heards the month september, he slumps into depression. he watches the "tong hua" mtv, he heards the world lbl low blood pressure, lack of sugar, he goes into a state of lost... his mind a constant reactment of the old memories. he sees the 2 letters of a special initals. he goes into a blank dazy mood.

a chap he knew quite recently was saying some issue of forgetting the past... to let go of the torment. his royal highness has also been telling people to look forward. to acknowlege wat the pass had happen. to bury it. but then again, advise well given to other friends who encounter problems do not and will never work on himself. it's a well known fact.superman saves the world, but who saves superman? noone!

to bury something really deep needs a chest n lock n of course, keys. link words, events are all the keys that more then freq unlock his royal higness's memories boxes...

and so, the topic was... high blood pressure. a taboo and unwitty comment from a friend. the moment the words spew out of "the" mouth, his royal highness went into alert mod. after high blood pressure (hbp), it alwasy links to low blood pressure (lpb) and will normally add to lack of sugar.... the dread lpb came... and his royalness just went to tape rewinding mode.

in a daze... in a blank mode... and suddenly, the key to the memories boxes opened. flooding him with old black and white colors. his higness started staring blanking, tearing papers into slips n pieces... chipping nails in the process...

well.... is it an easy task to always let go n forget? god has bless us with an excellant brain. yet we used like less then 10% of it? well.. the 90% juse became out memory bank. storing all the past, the memories... just waiting for right moment to haunt ya.

and so it did..

R.I.P KS...

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

test test

2006-02-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

testing post.. blogger has an error... i think.. damm

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

R

2006-02-17T23:33:00.000+08:00

and the lord R was puzzled with himself... he was(yes...it's in the past now) once the greater advisor in such issues and matters... because his advise has aid countless lost souls (it's 70++ rates) and now it seems that other people are playing advisor to him. why? the grand master lord R ponders...
a wise sage once say that when one is inside of the complex equation, he tend not to be able to view things in a objective matter... the lord R has fallen prey to the issue..

it is disturbing to reliease the truth himself. once a wise sage himself, all the stragetics and tatics he employed seem to be generally worthless, even the underhand ruthless methods... he is unwilling to snoop to such means... but he ponders... will he resort to such measures? the lord R contines to ponder...

the lord R has withered to a brat, a kid, a lost soul. the once purposeful lord, full of confidence built up was really devastated by a small fish. he got nervous...he got overall excited with just glimpse... his heart goes doki doki and his favourite cat caught his damm tongue. just wat is wrong with the lord R?

he pretty much can't seem to do anything... helpless like an infant, a newborn on this harsh world. the lord R then decides it's time to take actions into his own hands, risking everything in one stake. did he strike gold? nope... its was a hard hard iron casted wall which struck him in his face. a door erected by fish that was neither closed, neither open wide enough for acceptance.

n when he thinks that it was slightly becoming more ajar, he closes the door again in panic. he rambles into nothingness... seeking the light that seem to come from the thin slit from the door. the light that could bring him his knees. he quotes from mel: "when u r one ur knees, who can u pray to?". it's a deep qs.

he continues to lose his cool, his sanity, his confidence, his wiseness, his wits, his charms(yes charms) as his heart aches for him. in easier terms, he became weak. he became a tool for the evils to influnence him.

XXX

n then it dawned on him that he could redeem from acting like fool in front of fish, he could gain back all his cool, all his confidence, all his might n power if he could just piece himself back. he mute his annoying devil in the heart and decides to piece himself back. back to the days when his confidence was rock solid. where he could stand againnt evil, where he has his charms.

no more will he give in to whims to hasten everything. no more will her listen to nags from around who played advisor to him. no more will he be willingly to forsake himself to despair. no more. he will b himself, the great and mighty lord R who still fancys fish, backed by his extraordinaty confidene, his charms and wits to truimp.

even if there exists hardships ahead. or any common peasants boy who fancys fish too. he will triump. farmer boys who has yet to weathered hardships will not survive to face him. he will triump. he must triump.

and so, the lord R who still fancys fish, chose his stand. he does it his way, and only his way, for his lady fish.

just like when he declare his intentions honourably to fish. he will win her in his ways. by his means, his charms, his wits his unshaken confidences, and his love.

fish! the lord R has made his stand!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

弹弹琴。。。

2006-02-16T13:51:00.000+08:00

热爱生命－汪国真

我不去想是否能够成功
既然选择了远方
便只顾风雨兼程

我不想能够赢得爱情
既然钟情于玫瑰
就勇敢底吐露真诚

我不去想身后会不会袭来寒风暴雨
既然目标是平线
留给世界的只能是背影

我不去想未来是平坦还是泥泞
只要热爱生命
一切，都在意料只中。。。

XXX

自己上了一堂中文课。。。有了一点点的启发。。。便随之改了改来描绘自己此刻的心情。。。
如下：

我不去想是否能够成功
既然选择了。。。
便只顾风雨兼程

我不想能够赢得爱情
既然钟情于你。。。
就勇敢底吐露真诚

我不去想身后会不会袭来寒风暴雨
既然目标是飘浮不定。。。
留给世界的只能是背影

我不去想未来是平坦还是泥泞
只要两人一起向前
一切，都在可以。。。

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

withdrawal

2006-02-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

it's a day where people daclared it as a day to for st. valentine's heroic act. if u dun know abt the story, just yahoo or goggle abt it loh... if ya can't do tt? pls bang the wall...

so saints doing crazy stuff this season too... a big joke in life...

XXX

so this saint happen to chance the great legendary morris today on the bus yesterday. saint n legend didn't really get a chance to tok, but then, they did exchange some sms. legend stated a fact: vday is our most despicable day... and it's true indeed...

y is he a legend? cos he's prob the most respected chap i ever know in my life, the one who taught me abt politics play, and the sense of manupuliation for sheer survival. not to mention he's also the god in my era. n i'm proud to be his successor~ --> cos i created a legend too... lol

XXX

okay~ shit happens... the wrong time... the wrong approach... the wrong everything... despair... lost... confused... shock... stun... withdrawl... u name the worst... the saint has encountered it all in matter of an hr or two.. 1hour 25 min to be exact...

let's see how things go on...

so ppl... ppll.... dun expect his royal saintness to smile n b cheeky.. cos he won't b able to do it!

XXX

took part in the dota tourny yesterday n today. won yesterday. won 1 round today.. end up playing for 3rd placing tml.. well.. all the best guys...

the state of shock was instense.... the withdrawal sympothons terrible... for once in my entire 21 years of sainthood, i never felt so clear in the mind... never feel so calm... even as we played the game, with lots of ppl behind shouting... witht the opponent cursing.... it was all calm in the brain, and the heart. just lots of pain... i wonder....

so i guess the saint did worst then usual...

tml playing for 3rd place... god bless? maybe not after all... the man upthere is weird...

XXX

saint was exactly feeling very motivated to even get to school... he's feeling so tired all of a sudden... so terribibly old, all in a matter of one night... y? gracious... he's wasn't sleeping the night before, just stoned looking at the ceiling while lying on the bed till dawn...n promptly went for gaming...

just lying there, lazing... thinking... the the clear calm mind...

he has made his choice... and will stick to it...
tt's final...

XXX

it's been a terrible day... saint wearing an mask of smile... facing the team. encouraging them when if was totally sianzess. making merry when he was absolutly miserable.

imagine a saint radiating negative arua who has to put with cheering ppl up... how awlful..

sighs... life stinks.. just like tt

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

there's actually a blog competition in SG?

2006-02-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

gods... it's unbelievable.. my second entry twice in a week? it's freaky.... what prompt me to do this? well... never tt mindless crap chattering...

XXX

anyway.. i was browsing around the ivle (yah..again.. frag...) and came across an online post. there's actually an blogfest in nus? is tt actually good or bad?

hell right it's BAD! just imagine posting ur blog to the whole world to read. cos judges to assess ur blog entries, materials and wat ever yada yada shit they can dig to give ya a chance to clink the little little prize. i think it's a trap!

generally, it's really simple to get the logical. it's a plot from nus to kill us all. remember all the news abt some chaps getting fired from work because of some harmless grumbles of colleguages who annoy them? or the student who got reprimand n @!#!$% cos of his entries against an teacher he just have no thing for in sch?

yeah... u get the picture... so.. if i send an entry for nus blogfest. and the judges dig some old shit abt me 132@!% some ppl in the army forces... will i get visited by the internal security? wat's if some1 thinks i'm having an excellant life as opposed to their own misery of life and start to hack my blog? eek.. unbearable!

hell right.. it;'s a conspiracy... a conspiracy of the sch to dig stuff and kick out out..so it wil b less draining on the resources... just picture this. 1 less student = 1 less script to mark = 1 less person occuping the canteen seats = 1 less paper to carry = 1 less student to email = 1 less person to bother abt.. (u get the idea...)

it's a conspiracy!

XXX

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

hmpF? sianZ

2006-02-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

oops.. this time around, it's and 7 day lapse... okay.. 8 days to be exact if u count the dates printed on the screen. really... there are ppl who pointed tt out to me from the last post... but then again... for those who know me... i'm really can't b bother to handle stuff tt involves numbers n maths...

well.. it's easy to understand the rationale if i tell u guys this. long long ago, on the small isle called singapore, otherwise known as temasak (aka temasik) [tt just to make this tale seem old... well.. it's old.. 21 yrs ago ma]. the royal dowager (then queen) was with child (tt's me! fyi, u nut head)

she enjoyed counting money in the company. well.. she was an accountant b4 she was the queen. so, day and night, she counts 10,000 dollar bills, handle cash in grands. counting and counting n updating the account books , doing maths until his royal cheekiness was born (rtt's me again u dupe).

just imagine his poor royal cheekines was seeing maths all day long...it's easy to know why maths makes him bored!!!

okay.. the above tale was boring... well. it's 0158 and i'm tired...

XXX

was wondering recently above making some choices and coming close to some decisions... but then today, i've come to a decision.. now time to act on it...

okay~ so i was bz helping out at the ladies a fair just now at pgp. it's was quite fun to do some logistic work once in while, carrying the cartoons of neWater around. it's like the army log days... with us all doing it. specs. cpl. n all.!!!

anyway, i saw this qeird *weird lah* looking guy. he was trying to convince jen n faith to comiit to more biz nec(nus entrenpreharu club) stuff.. it was obvious both of them were trying to siam anyway.... but then.. tt's not e pt.

so on the way back. i was thinking, why do can they spend so much time on commiting so much fo their time, effort on such a project? wat if i was one of them, can i commit myself to such a thing? can i commit myself to other things? i ponder...

and then i decided.. time to take some action... n here goes nthing next tues... or mon...

XXX

there's this really interesting news tt's been bothering me since monday. how do i say it? okay... it happened on mon around 4pm. it's was a kawaii moment. it's was also an shocking moment. there was a lot of mixed emotions going on in the rumbling heart when it happen.

after thinking abt it on the train n bus ride home after bazzar helping out, i ponder the commitment issue n derived at an ans...

or do i?

i ponder...
XXX

his royal cheekines is in an usual state of mind and is able to express himself in an logical matter
reason: lots of projs tt require outlines --> he thinks it's absoultly senseLESS!
reason: his projs mates r so deep.... well.. all
reason: rumbling...
reason: lots of distractions in sch... esp all the irrating vday booths..

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

simply just "Confusing" New Year? wavered!

2006-01-31T01:21:00.000+08:00

okay... the interval where i grumbles online is increasing.... the other time, it was like 5 days lapse. not it's 6 days lapse. So... the issue is, is it an improvement? or izzit simply tt i'm just too !@#$%^&*() to just bloggy? i ponder....

XXX

anyway, it's happy chinese new yr to all who celebrates it anyway. personally, CNY has became a drag to me. i meant, it's nice to see everyone once in a while. esp the relatives tt we're closer to. but then, the more distant 1's will be like: Let's let X be the distant relative.

X: long time no see.... you have grown.... u still in the army?
me: *bleah* no... i've ORD
X: so ya schling?
me: yeah
X: where?
me: NUS
X: why NUS?
me: *gives some lame excuses*
X: wat course u doing?
me: fass
X: y tt?

(after serveral senseless mintues)

X: so u got a gf?
me: nope
X: y aren't u getting 1?
me: (gives more lame reasons)
X: can u pls get a gf to tame u?
me: faints....

so... how come CNY b fun for me? just imagine these speeches EVERYwhere from EVERYyear... it's so scripted tt i cant just recite the whole converstaion n ans things by heart. great.... wat a happy CNY -confusing new year

XXX

watched fearless a.k.a huo yuan jia show just recently. it's an excellant show. it's a gd show, considering that it features excellant fighting scenes... it's just tt the bone cracking, killing using wushu turns me off in the beginning...

it's against wushu ethnics to it vunerable points, or dislocating joints. it kind of remind me of the wushu years back in cchs. being with every1, the guys, shifu, shimu~. and the 1st lesson from coach tt wushu is not used for bashing n punching ppl up. it's for self defense n only to be used for protecting the ppl u care about.

anyway, back to movie. sometimes i wonder, when gals watch thrillers or horror shows, they get frighnted n hide their faces. but then, i have another friend. she's totally intersting i think. watching "fearless". she was hiding her face behind the popcorn box. sometimes, it's priceless capturing such moments when someone didn't notice ppl r watching... so funny

XXX

for the whole CNY break n the weekend break... i've sort something out. the verdict n conclusion is final: i have wavered...

it's time to do some homework and do wat i must do.
project tofu commerces.

XXX

soo... happy cny to everyone.. be it happy Chinese New Year. or COnfusing new yR

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

being logical... a right brainer doing left brain work

2006-01-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

ello ha... it's been like 5 days since the last grumbling session... and his royal cheekiness is back to haunt his own blog...

XXX

let's start with what been bothering me these week... hmmm... event number one. my mom has absolutely forbid me to swim after chinese new year.... with the usual blah blah blah superstitious nonsense.. sometimes, i just dun see the link btw irational links that swiming in the near coming chinese near yr wil bear ills.

okay, we all know tt ghosts exists. yeah.. i know. every1 knows... u dunno? crap.. okay, never the ghost part. let admit it exists.... but the issue is... y does swimming in the new year bear ills for me? i beg to differ...

but then... to keep mom happy... n to stop the endless "nag-gified". his royal highness cheekiness yield to the dowanger...

XXX

his royalness absoultly have the love of murphey! murpheys laws seemingly exsists for him! tt wat's the absolte moncnach of his life thinks.. y? everytime he yields for something, even to the extend of enlisting his grand advisers [F]&Ns, [M]&Ns, [C]TEs... things never turn out quite right.

when he never expects anything gd to happen. it just happens... he bumps into the most fantasinating ppl in his life. tt's his logic: u never have wat u desire. when u think of the one. the one appears like magic.

guesss it will alwasy run true for his bloodline!

when his royal highness doubts himself n starts to wavers... gd things happn.. just wat does the man up there wans... more hell for him or wat? when he wans gd things to happen.. shits falls..
*bitter*

XXX

event no 3: everyknows tt human nature is weird. we live to discover things. we live to uncover the unknow. we will simply die if anything we learn does not rationalizes themselves.

being human n totally cool abt it.. he has also something to bother about. his royal cheekiness went out one day with a friend to S.H.E autograph session. hey.. u remember tt? lol~ she was promoting another friend for obvious reasons.. lots of interesting comments

however... his royal highness is NOT at all convinced... the logic's simple. his greatess will never believe something unless he has saw it for himself... witness... experience...ate..felt...[u get the point right? else ya prob too dumb to b my friend :)]

and so... mr not convinced starts on his holy crusade. the mission: the observe for himself. after several days of unintentional observsations.... he's slowly understands the depths of his promoter friend. lol~ so case is closed. he wavers...

and continues to waver btw.

XXX

another day not so long ago. his royal highess meet with a friend and was mugging. it started raining as he was leaaving with his friend. the great pour delayed them. without a umbrella. the pair were stranded in the nat lib block near hans.

he wonders if it was a blessing in disguise. the pair chat a bit sitting at the steps of the gray buliding... a lot of tok was exchanged, not to mention a lot of fun teasing~ and he was Qs. okay... being questioned will b a nice way to say things.. it was more like being interorgated...

2 of the Qs was this:
1. if u met an ideal girl. n if u met an gal who's no so ideal but u have feelings for. who will u chose?
2. if there r 2 gals... 1 who knows how to cook excellantly, sew... do housework... another gal who's wild, fiery but whom u love... who will u chose?

just think... what will u chose if such Qs were presented to u? for Qs1: i chose the 1 i have feelings for. for Qs2: the fiery gal i love. cos i dun need a maid. just some1 i love

well again.. tt's not the point... it's the depth of the Qs tt bothered me. verbal answers to a Qs r nothing compared to wat one will really do when the time comes. the notion is: what will i really do if such a thing happens...? i wonder...

n continues to waver....

XXX

lifes stinks...

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

his royal cheekiness... on a walk

2006-01-21T02:03:00.000+08:00

okay~ so times went pretty confusing to the main character in the blog...~ things smoothen a lot... the main character managed to evade the misunderstandings... somehow...

lifes a mess until pretty recently... for now, things r going on smoothly, and so he thinks... seriously... he must stop his cheeky nature... or it will mess up his life.... but it's already an intergrated part of him that it's just unlike him to ever change his mess up life motto:
be cheeky when u still can be a cheeky chap

and so, his cheekiness consult the great [F]&Ns and get the divine answers from her holy-ness (i mispell on purpose). gd advice. 10x gal

and his cheekiness harass the ever great [M]&Ms n [C]TE too for aid n got great aid in the form of conspiracy =D

his cheekiness [R]&B sends his deepest thanks to [F]&Ns n [M]&Ms n [C]TE for the great support team effect.

his cheekiness wonders why tt he, being 21 n older... is seeking support from 19-20 yr gals for help. it's an odd irony and he can't seem to forgot himself. he's trained in a old sch mentality tt he, being male should lead n help the others. being elder.. he should b the 1 aiding others, not the other round!

but then again... guess that's wat true friends are for. it's doesn't mean we have to know each other so well tt we rot. it's a matter of helping each other in diff times n trouble periods.. giving advice tt r trueful in nature. and of coure, not lying to all of us.

XXX

hmmm~ watched memories of a geisha with friends today. his cheekiness was wondering wat on earth he's watching such a show with 5 other gals... his 1st impressiong was the g8 awakardsness in watching the show.. cos he assumed tt geisha = whore n it will be terrible rude to watch with them.

but since he say okay to movies to them.. he went anyway. geisha's an excellant show. protraying true life experiences. his friends were inspire to do a jap project on geisha. he is moved to do it. he juggles btw anime n geisha n some other mind brewing stuff (M&M F&Ns knows..lol).

XXX

his cheekiness wonders y in certain times ppl refuse to believe wat he says to them. when he tells a truth, ppl dun belive him. when he evades an answer n give shady answers.. ppl belive the manupilated truth. he is puzzled.

just today, he was saying his friend is a mei nu. but then, the person dun belive it. after endless chatter, it dawned on him tt his friend thought he was lieing to her. his cheekiness maybe be cheeky, but he dun lie. he got pissed...

as spoken by wise sages, beauty lies in the eyes of e beholder. when his cheekiness belives tt some1 is pretty, beautiful, meinu. he belives it. he dun lie or try to wrap the truth. on the contracy, if his cheekiness thinks tt some1 is thrashy.. he jolly is n will b.

so friend.. have confidence in urselF~ n lelong.. lelong.. selling mei nu!!!!

XXX

p/s: happy bday siyu. mel. judy

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

i'm the worst...

2006-01-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

great week i guess... celebrated many events... birthdays... sending offs.... increase bonding with ppl... attracting more gays (nevermind that, it's a joke)

did the worst thing ever.. n it's causing tormoil in my thick skull....

i've been a spider... spinning webs... spinning n just spinning

a close friend once told me something: "let nature takes it's course"... and so i did. but have i really done it? do i wan it? the brain n the heart tells otherwise... the conflict it does. the raging thoughts of difference... i wonder... does nature play games too?

the spiders hooks in prey... and it's got once too many.... or so it thinks...
i'm e worst...

better hope it's a dream..

hmm.. read a bk~ another in another part of the worldS (worlds! ya.. with an S), there's exist some1 who is an exact copy of u.. it's like having 2 you in parallel worlds. maybe my other me will understand n ravel the mysteries...

for now.. the problems all mine... mine to ponder n ravel it all out

indeed.. i'm e worst..

got this from a friend's site:
"Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you are to become who you will be"

i've become a monster

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

bad luck over. welcome lady lucky!

2006-01-14T02:41:00.000+08:00

wa... lucky~ lucky miss lucky n fortune is smiling back to me again~ hurry!!! maybe the pon pon hu. ji hu tt day really bump all the shit away! there r times we must believe in her! S.H.E autograph signing was the turing pt where everything gd came! went s.h.e with iris. rocks! going with fellow fans rocks. next day. it rock even more~ with the funny morning moring b4 js with kathy~ friday 13. rocs too~ went with caroline to c gong shi jia~ got anther autograph~ wa.. princeless~ tml.. swim~ WA~~~

life is gd sia.... just reliease tt the ppl i know from last sem r cooler then i can imagine! know them briefing... got to know them better~ know them better with those funny events tt alwasy end up with 2 ppl.... it's simplay hilarious. finally... gals i know with brains! yes! brains~ tt's e attractive factor in ppl.. ppl who can think !!!! mind to mind excahnge was excellant.

okay.. so y r things hilarious....? 1stly, i've alwasy ask lots of ppl to come.... but then... last min.. ppl will b sick.. pppl will pon.. ppl can't go.... or cannot meet up and then. it's me n 1 other friend.
1st time was with 'tigress'. the 'eye'. the 'kitty' and yesterday 'car'. lol. well.. at least it's constructive talking~ got to know them a lot better~ so fun~

no wonder i love nus. i think (maybe not cors)

hilarous no2. n when such events happen... it's alwasy bumbing into ppl i know.... so weird. n they alasy give the weird glares...lol... so funny~ but then.. it's troublesome to explain... so i gues say it's not wat they think.. n gives up..lol! i wonder... lol` haiZ

hilarous nevertheless~

bonkers... tired.. better sleep...

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

[S].[H]eb.[E] >>> all bad things! ;>

2006-01-11T00:03:00.000+08:00

now... let the blog master whine a little (noT) wheeny bit... the past week for him since the start of year 2006 been thrashy. for the better of his youth, he's been fairly okay with lady fortune. yet, in the upcoming new year, lady MISfortune seems to have take over as the master's guardian angel. just great.

a series of unfortunte events happen: falling sick on evently days... losting stuff (10x god i found it)... falling down ever so often... walking in the rain when he didn't really wanted to (it was fun nevertheless despite the trips n falls again in the rain)... cors screwing up... bumping into annoying ppl when i can't help it (at least i got to bump into great ppl too)... and of course... losing mahjong....

it was horrible.. this 1 week.... but then.. the master hate forgotten almost all of the sad events.. expect the mahjong where it was most vivid...

damm... 20-40 cent game sianz... the stakes always climbs whenever we play..L:( doing the classic 1 tai game. chicken game. ponpon hu. chi hu. ping hu.. all cannot ah.... it was so hard to break all their form... at least.. if min e loses.. i lost 5 dollar aH.. wa LAO.... crap :) no big tiles for the game.. all my dragon tiles abandon me sia..So, at least, the morale of the story is this.. when u r down on ur luck.. dun play mahjong. at least.. use some 1 tai win.. ji hu pon pon hu to spolit ppls game loh~ heng whole night nv "fang pao" (i.e give ppl winning tai.. cos u give it.. u pay double)

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holidays was bz.. marked by an endless flow of going out... using money... going out... using more money... work during the next holiday is a MUST.

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been being e middleman for selling soci txtbks for my engi dudes..lol~ strangely, they all took SC1101E as n sartor... n poor me... being e OTHER arts dude they know.. the burden came..lol
caroline was saying... y i so silly 1.. type up. nv charge commsion... lol~ gush~ she is biz minded.... hmmm~ nah.. rather not charge lah.... helping friends for friends... should not charge ma~ lol~

sold my copy to ys. sold siyu's 1 to antz. lol~quite` funny~ the sale took place as if it was a soduku ceremony (hmm.. it's the meet up with strangers date or something like tt.. in jap[i spell wrongly obviosult]

funny~ a taste of own medicein to siyu~ lol~

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went to c s.h.e sia~ i nv know tt iris was a fan of S.H.E tooo! so HAPPY to find a blosseM friend~ tt's cos all e while.. every1 i know in nus was like. anti she... so sad... now tt i found her~ an S.H.E fan... i will harress her ~~~ LOL!

yesterdasy was fun~ us rushing there to S.H.E on cab after our diff lectures!!! me going in the rain to help her grab e cd n entry pass! so happy~ S.H.E ROCKS!

iris 1 hell of intersting crazy gal~ LOL! falling sick still can c s.h.e~ ( this obviously show e charm of S.h.E). we arrived late... join e quece late.. but we got e autographs! sO haPPY!

it was so discourageing then we reach the end of the quenc.. it was so long tat to e extend. we gonna Q leagues out of marina sia.. futhermore.. these this mom behind us who was !@#!@$_@ abt e long Q.. n all hopes were gone to grab e autographs...

we were like wa LAO... can c iris also sianz 1/2~ lol~ in e end.. we end up toking n toking abt watever was on e mind... mind to mind exchange.. so COOL siAS! but then again... S.H.E fans are all cool ppl....

took abt the latest rumors..: must clarify.. it will NOT b TRUE~ n will NV be~ cos i'm siam b4 anything happens lOH!

fun~ a pity~ didnlt have time to catch up with lisong~ but then.. there's still S.H.E asian touR~ i must GO! n i will drag all she fans to GO! yeah! tt y i need to work~

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

the cave i must have to stay sane...

2006-01-07T03:54:00.000+08:00

and so they say tt life is like a taoist logo.... well, i guess it is
let's see... 2005 lessons were all fun, bundled with just about everyone around. 2006 lessons will be a total boring chore just to attend them... yucks..

2005 CORS bidding n tutorial balloting was a breeze. everything went according to schelude... 2006 CORS bidding was a nightmare... with CORS playing pranks on me... not registering the bid... and lots of crazy yr2 n 3s playing show hand in bidding... crazy bids like 4k. 3k is such a common sight in the crazy aunction.

2005 is a time where time n life is purely to myself. a time to be alone, a place to be alone.
2006 is a time where time is not more urs... it's shared by everyone.... day after day it's out of the house.... i wan to stay at home n just sit there doing nothing.... but then... lol~ guess only 1 of my friends will know this feeling :(, the bz gal who goes to meetings everyday n is booked~ lol~

wow.. me2. monday's book. tues booked.. wedneesday book.. just when thurs seesm to be a gd to finally rest.... calls come in.. n out i go...

sighs.... seeing too much ppl is such an unhealthy thing. i'm all of a sudden, terrify of seeing people.. so.. after tml's (okay.. technically, it's today. cos it's sat) i shall stay at home n ROT~ sunday is MY OWN DAY. kaoZ..

flipped the calender. and just then it dawned on me.. less then a week was personally time.. lol.. crap...

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it's an irony~ when u feel tt u r so crowded by ppl who are around.. u feel a need to b alone .. to crave solitary....
however. when u r alone.. so alone like sem02... u crave attention n people...

humans r pathetic... as least.. i am.
mortals r "fan ren" after all.. we r weak..

only the man up there is gd.

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Zhang Shao Han Newest CD - {Pan Duo La} is out ~ it rocks.. and she is so cute:P *winks winks*

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

this and that. hmpF!

2006-01-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

great... just great... when times r fun n hip, not to mention being cool... MR murphey appears to poo on us. these few days was besiedged by many outings... fun fun with ppl. great... then castrophoeh falls...

CORS screwed up! nevermind being outbidded twice.. never mind being sianz waiting for this n that to happen... never the sorry buggers who were shamelessly dumping 1000 to 2000 points... nevermind this and that.

when everytime was turning out find getting a mod with a buddy. it screw up~
the god damm min SUCCESSFULLY bid was 500. i bidded 507. my friend bid 510 in end. he got it. i didn't....

But the damm issue is... the min bid was 500! checking the frag bid details.. half of those who bid 500 got it. those who bid move then tt got it. but wait.. the lovely CORS did not register 507 bid... so.. what the hell? server down? well.. here's this. DAMM U... no wonder ppl design anti sch logo. no wonder some ppl r screaming it suck. no wonder this no wonder that. ya.. screw...

now it's plan D.. wat the hell~ i hate when plans dun go as plan. damm the rain n everything. i hate it when things screw up.

just shot an email to cors. yah.. like they can do shit! sobs...

damm damm damm.... life stinks at times.... it's times like this i feel like KILLINg

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

ya right... happy new yr... my foot!? ice-age

2006-01-01T03:58:00.000+08:00

wat a horrible beginning to a new year... now only was i very confused about the things that are going on... the god of plague has deciede to bestow a very handsome looking fever on me... just great...

missed all the new year countdown.... missed partying at KT's place.... missed singing KT drunk like a toad.... damm it

loser year ahead...

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this really suck~ yr 2005 was an excellant year, filled with new stuff, new people, new friendships, new bonds. trillions of ups n a couple of silly downs....

yr 2006 seems doom n grieven... not to mention it's the year of the dog.... y not the cat? i ponder
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1st day of year 2006 and i can't sleep at all.... fever on the spark... doubt i can even go out soon... stinks....
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no news is good news... i'm beginning to believe in that. 1 great guy once say: the wise man chose not to know it all.... only a fool reins in everything he could....
i'm a fool...

better stop thinking n started playing my own little games....
game : avoid avoid avoid....
game: time to be ice...
game: as the lord decides...
game: disappearing act

---> where's my cave? a solitary DMZ ?

wat a D day...

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

unspoken... living a false fool's life

2005-12-30T02:29:00.000+08:00

let's see... the tingle is bugging me to blog everytime... yes... everytime for whoever's sake!!! taking a bus home; taking a train somewhere; or just rotting somewhere in the mids of orchard road and even during lunch, the tingle is there~ well, i should say that it's something like spider sense~ but then... nevermind.

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finally an outing with ssa2203 mateys n saw chicky gal with all the spots n dents from her crusade with the chickenpox: the chicken pox wall. all was there expect edmund. he's in india somewhere i guess... eating the indian roti prata? hmmm.. i wonder....

it was the usual~ jas merclessly attacking poor wm~ really.. wm need to buck up a little.. if not a lot~ 3 conclusions came to mind. First, he's afraid of us or just afraid of gals. Second: he shy? well... maybe not? third: he's not a man man. i.e wussy man. how can any normal man stand it when jas was shooting down his throat. argh~ this wussiess is not going make him any way hot for any1....

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learnt from chicky judy tt tkd was'nt all tt fun~ apparently, his tkd seniors are all blood thirsty jerks. from wat was learnt: they seniors are all abt 29. n very single, not by choice!!! it seems that they were not getting any attention from their workplace... and hence offer to coach back in nus in hope of hitching young gals... wa LAO

and well... they really meant it when they say tt there were back to coach just for gals... not trying to joke like me... i know i alwasy say i'm a chap~ 4ever saying gals r cool` guys r boring... but u chaps know i'm just kidding loh!but then.. these tkd r reallty despo from wat judy say~ freaks balls...

hmm.. imagine me 8 more yrs down e road? will i be a sicko lke them too? sobs... i can't help but feel terroify n ponder~

i wonder.... jsut wat the heck is love? i've got a friend i know too~ he know gals for 1 purpose. i know wat ya thinkging... the ans is now the 3 letter S work. he get gals.. cos they can take care of him... wa lao.. like tt .. might as well get a maid!

watched Must Love Dogs movie.... an a notion sprung to mind~ just will there b a perfect person flawless 1 out there? perfect n flawless just to me? some1 whom i can trust fully? have confident in? some1 who can rule n direct my life? not to mention~ some1 with brains gd enoght to think

so, do i wan a maid? or do i wan someone who understands?

one thing is clear, i dunwan a maid~ just some1 whom i deem flawless n perfect to my eyes. some1 i can trust fully have confident in to say anything. a some1 with a thinking cap who can b my direction.

just just.. where r u?

the more u hope. the more it will nv come. the moment u decide on someting n can't be bothered abt it.... the hope comes. the moment u wan the hope to increase, u get hit on the head, n back u slip in hell...

so.. is tt cheap as a dime? or is it simply priceless? i wonder...

life now is a small dime n worthless i guess~

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

the adventures of meowy fin~

2005-12-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

can u celebrate... lalalalalalala - utada hikaru (i spell wrongly didn't i?). but then, it's exactly how i feel now~ so blissed and happy, to a certain extend.

woke up feeling a lot better after the dose of panadol, and went out to meet m&m n concon for biking session~ every1 was late... just as i was dreading it's going to be another hell episode after boxing day, concon arrived with her taxi story. suddenly, it's was like our last biking session all over again when both m&m n concon was doing the impossible... taking a cab after missing the shuttlebus~ LOL!

then m&m came.... wa.. n we didn't saw uncle wong. lol~ okay.. at least i nv did! danGZ! concon say uncle wong can cook well.... such a gd dad~ LOL! if only my own dad can cook half as decent loh! :(

bike n bike... no bad.. there's an sigificant boost in speed for my mateys~ (i sound like a pirate; i am one) cycle with 1 hand.. not because it was cool doing so(it's cool lah). but cos the left arm was loose i think... overdose swimming has made the weaker left arm loose.. lol! so the end was full of a dangling left arm flying all around...lol~ how funny~ it's like a puppet on strings!!!

meet with annie after tt... walk to chinese swimming club... quite surprising the security is so slack.. we sort of just went in~ n start e hunt~ wow! approach e lady at e counter... she direct me to admin office. n i found the chain n pendant! so happy no1 sold it loh~ so so happy! singaporeans r so nice.... I love singapore?

went out all smiles to m&m . concon. annie~ so happy i could hug them all~ .. boi.. now i'm getting emotions~ so happy i got it back~ no more netherworld sightings:P n my 0.5k chain is back! haha! such a blessing it look like some uncle chain(as antz says) n it's tanrished~ lol~
everyone prob thought it was some cheap metal n lousy pendant..

haha~ it was made to order pendant.. ex... make to order chain.. 0.5 k... LOL! haha~ HAPPY!!!!!! muacK

it's surprising.. i was quite depressed the whole of last night.. do didn't really get decent sleep... further waiting for m&m n concon increased e dread of not seeing it again.... such a blessing f&n m&m sort of encouraged me to find it! i m so in love with them! LOL! (funn~Y how come i m thinking of jj.yg.bh trio?) lol.... time changes/chain/changes/chain

lol! spend e day after tt makan katong laska.. so funnyeating laska... lol! but then.. lol.. funny lah.
n heard all the loves of doggies n hamsters... stilll.. cats rock

i alwasy have this notion tt dogs r dumb creatures.. it will stay. why? it's simple. dogs r simple. they r loyal to e master even it the master is 1 evil shit.lol..
cats on the other hand, r indepence. they can leave on their own world! cats r mysterious.. last but not least, they have the sight~ n r incredile smart! i just adore the smart n despite the brainless (smart = have a brain to think)(brainless = ppl who r so silly. i.e dogs)

haha. HAPPY! chain chain!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

it;'s boxing day... and it's one fucking screw up day.... KNN

2005-12-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

wat the fuck is wrong? wat the FUCK!
or shall i say....

fuck! what's the fuck is the fuck fucking around this fucking fuck day!

this is the worse day ever... damm it!

my precious gone.... now it's back to sq 1... looking at thoese netherplane ppl again...

i do hate looking at those who does go bump into the night...

now with my precious gone... i 'll c them again at night~ SCREW IT!

jsut wat the fuck is wrong on this fucking day!!!

FUCK!
F-U-C-K!

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i'm a fucking kid.. screw it!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

and so christmas came... merry x'mas~

2005-12-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

wa... it's another xmas eve... this tme it's no longer doing camp duty, nor cele with the NSF ppl for xmas... it's with e guys again... lol... more male overdose~ i thank god for e recent outing with [F]&Ns n [M]&Ms to balance out...lol!

anyway steamboating was diff for a change... we have less meaters... no rabbit to b butterboy n resident chef~ lol~ now's it's my turn~ lol~ quite funny experience.. even e eating style was diff~ lol~ so home feeling~ blissed! so loved..lol

now... what's with with e way i walk? lol~ *boOoooo* faith n mellie was saying i'm like charBO! lol~ shake ah bon boN... danGZ... anyway.. it's funny~ being kettle boy n waitress and all...

yes mdm? can't i help u mdm? *hehe*

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got back e results.. not gd. not horrible bad. but nevertheless bad.. stinks.. (just wat m i thinking) lol~ but then... forget it... can't be bother~ lifes goes on.. althoguth 1 damm shit comes after another
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anyway.. merry xmas to all... going out liao.lol
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god bless e world~

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

crazy sports day for 4it... / so xmas is not abt red fat man afterall...

2005-12-21T13:41:00.000+08:00

wow! it's 4it sports day last night... unbelievable.... badminton, bball... swimming... lan... . we all almost die.. even kt die. he was complaining tt he wanted to puke after out lan gaming, a typical event we all haven whenever we go out. it's like a standard menu

let's c: badminton unlike the day b4 when it's standing still n acting cool with styles hitting... it's all running like dogs yersterday... play abt 2 hrs.. we all die. rabbit still got game at nus today~ haha~

bball... they played. i just watched.~ funny~ this time round, rabbit sprain his finger..lol~1 hrs!

swim~ we all did~ thought i was the chicken.. i stay in e water for abt 5mins plus b4 moving...lol.. chickeN! but i did complete laps.. in the 2.1 m pool` so deep! yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 hrs!

then it's lan... 3 hrs. mad....

now body still aching like F.. at least the whole of e right side!

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oh ya.. for the 1st time in my freaking... KT can't tease abt me heaviear then him.. we were weight... ass kt was 77kg.. haha! i was 72!!!1 ROCKS! n taller.. ass KT!

he's bma overshoot~ me still standard! HAHA! yeah! funy day!

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i finally knew wat xmas is all abt.. it's not some fat red man giveing stuff`so it' abt pplp cele birth of jesus.. okay.. but y e fat red man? i still wonder!...

ponder ponder!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

wa..... i need some oiling on the joinTS!

2005-12-20T02:31:00.000+08:00

wa.... now... we should all really do our warmups n cooldowns properly... damm... n i mean every bit of it. it's 0231 hrs and the body still's in zombie mode. the joints r creaky n in urgent need of oil, the muscles r screaming from stretching from badminton.... yhEW!!!

for not biking since eons... the last biking session has killed the bum. and just when it's on the verge of recovering itself, on came badminton with the hyper christ on the move, threathing to make ur heart pump like nv b4.

can't believe i've grow weak... now.. when i was much shorter n hell lot rounder, all these were nthing... n now i'm whining... when i'm definealty taller n not so round... i got weak!!!

wat can i say? it's overdose of slacking tt has cause this? haha~ i wonder

at least badminton was funny~ whole game wasn't serious, just anyhow hit balls... act style~, tok nonsense.. laugh...

but then. tml.. (oops. it's today).. badminton with e cchsm guys will kill us all... neighbhourhood crazy smasher kt will tear all my leg muslces... smashing tt kt off will rip my arm off.. not to mention breaking the wrist..lol....

and there's a swim as dessert~... dangZ.. hope i dun drown or something... water = horror = terror~ on e bright side.. at least we an get some heroes who can save my asss offf~
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crashed on bed after i reached home today... on com.. dl movies.. n was dead from 4-7pm.. god....
i am weak! weak weak~ lol
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hmmm. did i mention the ear's working again? lol.. yeah it did
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fixed the crap nus ezlink card.. at pasir centre... it was quit cool.. cos they scan e cover to a new card for me.. LOL! n i thought it's proberly gonna go back to YIH to get a new card....

to think i was 12#! n sulking like a kid e day we all meet for biking n bowling then.lol~
kanna sayang but [F]&Ns... lol~ so funn~

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

有还是没有。。。

2005-12-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

奇怪。。。突然之间感到无比的。。。是寂寞？是空虚？还是我太无聊了。。。再不然，就是自己已经不在习惯独自一人的滋味。

自己最想要的东西到底是怎么？我不知道。。。哈哈。。。

昨夜迟迟难眠。。。彻夜都在看下栽的“美国派“系列。如果万事都是如此，简简单单就可拥有、解决就好了。

奇怪。。。我真的变了！

×××

现在正在观看〖我和僵尸有个约会III〗。。。真渴望日子可以像他们一样精彩。。。

这一期让我想起了许多事情。。。我放弃了。。。

×××

现在的日子也不错。。。起码，是无由的。。。毫无负担。。。毫无牵挂。。。

哈哈

可悲的人。。。

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

it's heaven n hell, not earth in btw .... =X :X :( =( =< :(

2005-12-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

fun..cos meet up with kt... did the usual talk.. him doing the usual.. rp.. wa.. taller n slimmer.. wa LAO.... guess wat... idiot touch my hair... dangZ.. weird freak sia... but then.... he's some1 i know from pri 4~ so, np man! alwasy welcome ur sarcism~ lol~ wa..
pri 4-5-6 = 3 yrs
sec 1 2 3 4 = 4 yrs
jc 1 2 = 2 yrs
army = abt 3 yrs
now = 3 + 4 + 2 + 3 + {1}
====> 13 yrs liao... EEEK.... freakS
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it's unbelieveable sia.. i oversleep day.. it's e 1st time in my life ever to oversleep for an event... dangz.. tok abt virgin experience... but then. LS was e lord of pure lateness... idiot work up 1/2 hr after we were supposes to start e event.. dangZ...

it's a blessing the wind chimes start producing music to wake me up..else.. it's 1!@#$)&*%^!*(@. n my grace.. kt... he was on time? kAOZ... guess being mugging in london work his brains up a little.
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ktv again.. sang n sang.. tired.... it was weird.. cos there's something wrong with my left year... i think the insides a swollen or somting... the ear canal since smaller... n ouCH? pain..

as a result.. can't really hear well... a bit tone deaf today sia.. sianz oh~ haha~
hope it recovers soon.. then it's swimming? haha
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but then.. i must say.. i went out with a horde of pigs today.... kAOZ... it's like.. eat this.. eat that? eat eat eat... we at at ktv, kt went to eat laska later... then we chill n game...then it's dinner.. every1 was saying.. not enought to eat leh.. wat lao

later ls n despo went for round 2 for old chang kee n rotiboy bread respectively... kt got icecream? wa lao... r we pigs or wat?

sianz... seems tt as we grow up.. all we know is to eat eat eat eat........sianz
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indeed...we r pigs.. pigs ahoy!

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

K~ fever

2005-12-13T03:13:00.000+08:00

okay... so now another K is back... lol` kt's back to sg` n it's long overdue n time to pawn him~ hehe! the days without KT to stick around is boring~ 3 cheers to matey~ the pawning starts tml!

guess wat? e 1st thing he got to meet is to Ktv again... so.. KT = Ktv = K-ing = KS-ster also
i.e kating = sing ktv = pucnching = ks dota kills...lol funny
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nothing to much to blog... so.. this whole entry is delicated to the letter K ba.. haha~

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

look beneath it... n b true!

2005-12-09T04:42:00.000+08:00

watched American Pie 04: Band Camp just today. Hmmm... if one could forget all the 4 letter wordings, the frequent cursing, it's actually quite meaningly in a sense...

so, forget the RA rating, forget the porn, and focus on the meaning of the show. i once told an associate i happen to know abt me dling e show. he gave me the classic :shun: look. it's like.. omg.. it's a shitty n thrash movie. u watch tt cheapskate low class movie?

guess what when i say abt me watching "the 40yr old virgin". his respone was worse.

it's simple y i can get really pissed off at such ppl. it's simple.. these brainless geek nv watch e show b4. all they could think of is the superfical surface tt the shows broadcast a high degree of sex. tt's y the movies rated it RA or M18 cats.

i believe the rationale is this. it's rated above 21 or 18 simplicy cos ppl belive e grp willl NEVER understand the depth behind the plot n story. all they will see are the porn n swearing.

i wonder... if they view travial stuffs like movies with a stereotype view... just how do they look at people. do they simpley pass judegment on the 1st encounter and stick with it?

sticking back to e example. american pie talks abt how u earn trust n win friends, overcomin the family shit. blend with a big heal of swears... 40 yr virgin toks abt e dilemma abt a 40 yr virgin n how he expeeriecens shuns by some ppl. his friends help him to overcome it althought the means were somehow different.

but hey.. if u cut the sex notions and the simple nudity.. u acutally c wat goes behind. True friends are those tt help u even they might laugh at u at certain times.

so, to those who pass judgement to those based on a sterotype or otherwise. u r truly damm.

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

~chicken voice~ | xmas changeover?

2005-12-08T03:44:00.000+08:00

"Women walk into Starbucks and order a "fat free" cafe mocha and then get WHIPPED CREAM on top. No kidding. I see it all the time... "
taken from some random blog....

anyway... this is funny~ talk abt tt... this reminds me of the steamboat plans... choc buffect plans.... and of course... the counter to the sins by cycling... ktv-ing.. yeah right.. lol
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the whole day was spent thrashing the throat. 4 guys in a ktv room... slashing each other to wreak e microphone with SHIN songs.. MayDay songs.... not to mention all the Mr singing the Ms roles.... funny~

singing duet with guys = darn funny~ with all the falsetto voices we have.. it's like SHIN all over again..
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now we are all more broke then ever..lol.. been eons since we last see each other esp ahming~
so this yr.. i shall NOT send any xmas cards liao... too broke now... after all.. the SAF has offically stop paying us extra dough when we ORD..

all of a sudden.. i feel that i must have reverist.. or sign up.. as long ppl like ah B will have jobs to support e lavish lifestyle.. lol~

just reliease tt yun's living in e same block with faith tan yr~,n ah B
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seems tt this xmas won't be as boring as b4.. wow... before.. xmas = go suntec/orchard n rot
or..watching tv...(cos most of the time.. u will catch tv airing HOME ALONE 1-2-3... or some santa guy show...

hey.. after all.. i dun cele xmas.. as with e rest of my pri.sec.jc mateys... it's go out.. to e hot place n do e meaningless countdown..

well... we r all taoist or buddhism... like we know abt xmas...
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hmmm but then... once in nus.. it's diff... the social norm seems to be christians.. catholics.. n other branchs tt just seem to confuse me sia...

and... they celebrate it. so... maybe i will know..
1. what is xmas - besides e stuff abt the red fat man
2. what is xmas spirit?
3. exchange gifts? no idea what's tt... heard tt's a tale n a custom behind it....
4. wat's e joy n sense in cele it?
5. y is it alwasy xmas n a happy new yr
6. y even cele it after all?

n i ponder.........
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feeling paranoid now... well... nvm.... y bother...
already made e big major decision inmy gray matter...
sobs. sianz.

yeah.. tml's a new day... = chicken little
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ya.. right.. my foot.
i dun like xmas.

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

so what's ya talking? so what?

2005-12-07T03:44:00.000+08:00

so what have been up with me this days u ask. well... it's due time to answer the eager Qs. besides not having a life during this 1 week of gaming dota all the nights till dawn, i have been learning html for bloggin purposes! wow!

cool right?

haha~ well.. if u dun think it's cool~ i care NOT for your opionion~ lol~

so now, the site loads faster, works easier.. n it's easier to nagivate...
yes yes kathy, mel.. it's easier now.. so.. do drop some tags n shower me some of ur chit chats...

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well, since it's time to blog.. here r some new thoughts tt was inspired by a friend and a show.
so what's a marriage? wat's a girlfriend (boyfriend)? who are they for? just how close are they in relation to ur friends... who n wat r ur friends?

i ponder these qs. just y do ppl marry each other? izzit becos they wanted legalized sex? or they wan a legal bound commitment? maybe legal incentives from the local govt? i wonder.

2nd: the diff a female friend n a gf? i could nv tell the difference in the past. and so now.. i question couples..
picture a scenario with ur female friend: ya're close with the. u hang out with them a lot. u like being in their company and their prescense. u watch movie n go out with them
n pitcure a scenario with ur gf: u do the exact same thing..
SO, does this mean ur gf n ur female friend r one n the same? i wonder!

so i wonder.. y bother b bother with gf or bf anyway...
so wat's the rationale for the title or statue of bf.gf.wife.husband?

now if.. everyone thinks any1 from the opp sex are friendly with u... do not b mistake tt they fallen for u... or u have fallen for them...

cos they r ur friends..
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okay.. those r just some boundaries i alwasy mixed up in me life b4 nus... no wonder i alwasy seem to fall in "love" wrongly

hahah~ so now..

wat is a gf?

can anyone ans tt? i've give u a penny for it~

(=_=)"

-the world is not beautiful. therefore, it is. -

courtship games... every1's playing it in the holidays.. but not me!!! Y!!!!

2005-12-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

yes yes.. u r reading correct.. exams are truely over for me... for everyone i know.. i think...
it's unbelievable.. i'm following the crowd.... cos every1 is bitching about the end of their exams.. even SHAZZY baby... oh freak... so here's it.. yes.. i have finish my exams... time to play... play.... play.... learn cool things.. train a bit.. play more games.. n of course.. mind games.. n looking games....

by looking games... well... it's time to look carefully at the surroundings n the frequent happenings... there are lots of things happening... crude warfares... courtship games... bitching tales...

yeah! u r right! there's was an associate who told me that the holidays will be a time for courtship.. where times n cool.. it's time to show hand n court gals... ya.. n he's courting 1 of my friends... haha! tt's funny~

courtship story 2: it's time to look around at another grpie i know.. it's a love triangle (square. rectangle.pentagon.hextagon thing)... yeah.. lots of ppl after another gal i know... lol

hmm.. if u look around.. there's so many funny things going with e people around me loh. it's such a bother at times... cos... i'm not part on the games... n damm it`

i wan to play the courtship game too~ with The-One-Who-Should-Not-Be-Named.... haha...
it's an irony at times. but then.. it's compliated.. sbsianz at times..

now.. there's another friend around me... i think he's going to play a courtship game too? cos he's troubles.. bad tempered... recently..lol

so.. i sianz now.. Y is every freaking male i know playing courtship games.. n I not playing it!
daRN!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

The One Who Should Not Be Named

2005-11-26T15:17:00.000+08:00

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yeah~ i'm bored~ now i'm also doing this~ i'm a copy cat~ hehe~ here goes!
delicated to ain n jasmine~ --> c~ no wonder i make u hyper b4 e chi biz exams! hughug? haha

Your Birthdate: October 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper.

You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality.

Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure.

Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone.

Your strength: Your larger than life imagination

Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered

Your power color: Lime

Your power symbol: Lightening bolt

Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

what? i'm not scary... okay.. hug n love me then) hints hints (

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

How Scary Are You?

this is totally accurate! impress me then! intelli's come

***Your Personality Is***

Rational (NT)

You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test
http://www.blogthings.com/threequestionpersonalitytest/
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finally a good night sleep, after the nonsense that was flooding~ another 90 more hrs? (okay.. it's probali about 70++ hrs till my last exam! wow! time to starDee lateR peeps!
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you will be surprised~ a lot of things happen this week! it's all related to u know wat? yeah!
chemical formula: WO -Women

i saw a lot of endless tales that envoling about gals. how couple fall apart... how couples are form... how some ppl endless try to make things work, trying eagerly to make himself into a couple (yes.. this line is complete with grammers errors, but this is intentional? if ya smart~ u'll figure it out Y), scandals that's spining around. and of course~ the formation of the FELLOWSHIP --> haha!
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i think every1 has heard abt jay chou's new album song. track 4. the one abt the dogs~ who endless trail after jay~ (if haven heard abt it.. do hear abt it.. cos it's funny! i shll post it here!
四面楚歌》歌词

[00:21.55]我的生活象拍了一出戏
[00:23.27]又成了导演和编剧
[00:24.60]只说了台词一句
[00:25.85]让他们xxxxxx操控着我的情绪
[00:28.74]那根本不是我的口气
[00:30.29]想让观众看好戏，
[00:31.56]最后的目的还不是在增进收视率
[00:34.08]我不知道有没有勇气摘下他们的面具
[00:37.27]我只知道xxxxxxx最美丽，
[00:39.13]会不会一直演下去让他们满意。
[00:41.72]la la la la la
[00:47.76]噢噢我不可能在回头，
[00:51.91]la la la la
[00:58.20]噢噢我只能一直往前走~~~
[01:06.00]
[01:12.24]我在回家路上看着路标指着演艺圈
[01:14.75]如果选择往前走，我就必须强撞
[01:17.28]走着走着莫名其妙冲出来好几只狗
[01:19.83]我心想我什么时候能有那么多只狗。
[01:22.31]他们xxxx，手里拿着镜头，好像要对着我作出什么阴谋，
[01:27.30]会说话的狗，他说他是为了偷偷看看能不能看我多发几根骨头。
[01:32.55]如果想xx手里的xxxxxxxxxx我照料你
[01:40.39]狗狗狗
[01:42.34]需要我照料你回家的路很陡我会送你部手电筒
[01:49.75]狗狗狗
[01:52.61]我告诉他们办法是会过去的新闻是一时的生活是永久的
[01:57.05]友谊是会留下来的我帮他们写了歌
[02:00.22]因为我们xxxxxxxxxx，
[02:02.62]我始终还是我，谁都改变不了我，
[02:04.66]虽然我知道很多弓箭手想射下往上爬的我，当我到了山顶上头
[02:09.23]谁也伤不了我，
[02:10.40]这些弓箭手身后都拎着dv在手，
[02:12.84]我还是会把你们当朋友，
[02:15.07]因为我知道这是你们大家的工作，加油摇着屁股的狗，
[02:17.82]虽然不是我的对手还是可以成为我的狗。
[02:22.78]la la la la la
[02:29.31]噢噢我不可能在回头，
[02:33.00]la la la la
[02:39.29]噢噢我只能一直往前走~~~
[02:43.04]
[02:43.49]~~~~~(rap)(rap)(rap)........
[03:03.94]la la la la la
[03:09.53]噢噢我不可能在回头，
[03:13.71]la la la la
[03:19.64]噢噢我只能一直往前走~~~
[03:23.86]xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
[03:28.44] 噢噢为了什么
[03:30.98] 噢噢为了骨头
[03:33.51]xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
[03:38.87] 噢噢拍了什么
[03:41.10] 噢噢什么都没有！
[03:43.37]xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

yes~ some people i saw are doing this... clinging around... like a dog~ trailing along~ just for some affection... y do this?
if u can vaguely guess who this is? congrats.. if not? too bad~
even wonder y i made this post?

that becauses the fellowship has been formed. once ur jealousy has dwarfed ur mind.. u make sourceless accusations.. rumors... with some other people n people and me. fun? now let the fun begin. exams over..(well soon). it's time to play. time to show ppl what the army has taught me..
hello doggy~ watch the power play
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okay~ just 1 semester in sch.. i got 4 scandals? wa LAO... just like the sec sch days... sianz
but then~ it was just funny ones~ just a small joke among friends~ cheeky ones! especially the funny about the triangle~ haha~ me triangle n j~ haha~

scandals are actually quite fun~ unless it was meant to direct. to hurt~ tt's when it's time to play...
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hmmm~ was watching show with friend last night~ quite funny~ potter 4 seesm to be well filmed.. but then.. the movie censorship board has cut cut cut cut cut till the show has become non-linked. cos the play order is no A--> B--> C~ it's A --> C direct. so it's a show mean for the fans who hve read e booK. if u dun~ ya will be clueless abt it!
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hmmm~ oh ya~ with the events tt was occuring~ i was thinking ... hmmm
time to just be happy hanging around with mateys~

with the mateys~ theres' no need to ponder wat is correct is correct.. what is wrong..
there's no need to have the correct behavoir witht eh ideal 1.
so... just occassionally looking at the ideal 1 u know hu is cool~

yes... it's sad.. but i do like The-One-Who-Should-Not-Be-Named.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

a movie? a life? i chose the latter

2005-11-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

i had actually decide to do this post on some interesting thoughts that has developed during the course of the exam period. a lot of sad n cool stuffs... lots of joy and lots of tears...

but hey... murphey's law acts again. some 18 kid has to spolit the day. hence the change in content. maybe when the issue is cleared, or some1 developed some brians... we can change the situation. for now. freak it. so here's the post.. in chinese unicode. if u can't read chinese? maybe i will translate to the selected few.. just maybe. if u can read chinese, gd for u then~

因为无法在周二与伙伴们看哈俐伯德，所以在网上下栽了。和我的心灵之友－信信在学校里先看了。

到家：第一时间通知是友人“五月”。周二可能有急事。不能和大伙儿看。今日以先和信信看了。谁知道，五月大发脾气说我犹豫不掘，不受信。冷战。。。

他妈的，我不是和她说了。我有急事吗？你没有听到吗？

我合时说过没有办到？最起码，对你这朋友没有。

你的放纵领我感到失望。。。对我而言。。。算了～

我有了确定。我选折了救他人一命，放弃电影。

一个生命难道就不比电影重要吗？

失望又是失望。。。

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

mood: angry n pissed at some, yet touched by some

2005-11-23T00:58:00.000+08:00

wat can i say... 2 down, 3 to go? hmmm.. tt's the only positive thing today thatt has bothered to happen. well... besides having the geo paper which was kindof hailarious.... it was leeched... cos the questions were really similar to the past yr papers~ i am happy~ n blissed~

earlier morning mugging was rewarding.. saw n interact with more interesting ppl today, in the morning... feel so much better after slacking in the morning with ah blur! haha~ see ppl blur blur... lightened the exam mood~ lol~

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shit started happening today.... around the dinner time...
i really shouldn't haven bothered to stay back sia... it was totally brain draining after the geo paper... even happy going ah blur was faced dead... we were all trying to cramp everything into our skull.. lol
it's blessing blur got sweets..annie got chocs to keep us recharged.
so we did got some work done! haah~ completed mugging cnm again.. yawns....

the 2 later comers from e exams came n joined us... sleepy piggy came for a while n went back to zzzzz.... wa lao... jio us mug.. she herself went back to pig in pgp... lol!
exams drain every1 loh!

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shit happened next. i question the world; have u ever lost a friend due to silly childish rumors? u did? congrats.. welcome to my life.
i experience tt back in the old days.. and i am NOT ready to have tt taste again.

do u know i almost tried to killed u when u start spew nonsense? then.. if there were only guys.. things would have turn out ugly.. u got lucky ass...

next time u bothered to snipe at me again... u know... i'm not nickname "scary" for nothing 1...

next time.. i will snipe u..let's c u losing friends too~wait a min., u have had friends? i pity ur friends then...

now.. go screw urself.
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spent e night explaining to my friend~ she's understanding~ such a blessing tt she's a great friend~ cool abt it...

but then... how true was it? did the friendship changes? i wonder... i ponder...
well.. let's see how things go loh~

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oh ya.. i m deeply disappointed in knowing the chap who spew nonsense.... if u have against me... dun drag my friend into it. jerkball. i'm not deluding..., if the 2 other guys can detect the same spinister 2nd meanings behind ur words.. we r correct

so ya trying to show ur might infront of gals? not smart at all

tarnish my reputation is fine..mess with my dear friends.. u die

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

hell... my new home...

2005-11-21T17:16:00.000+08:00

is hell hot or cold? haha.. i'm going to hell after my geo paper... it's tml.. n god damm it!

source: http://treeelfsblog.blogspot.com/ nov 21 (too lazy to get trackback link)

First, we postulate that if souls exist, then they must have some mass. If they do, then a mole of souls can also have a mass. So, at what rate are souls moving into hell and at what rate are souls leaving? I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for souls entering hell, let’s look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Some of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to hell. Since, there are more than one of these religions and people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all people and all souls go to hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change in volume in hell. Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in hell to stay the same, the ratio of the mass of souls and volume needs to stay constant. So, if hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter hell, then the temperature and pressure in hell will increase until all hell breaks loose (i.e., Hell is exothermic). Of course, if hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in hell, than the temperature and pressure will drop until hell freezes over (i.e., Hell is endothermic). So which is it? If we accept the postulate given by Mrs. Therese Banyan during my freshman year, "That it will be a cold night in hell before I go out with you," and take into account the fact that I still have not succeeded in having a relationship with her, the second case cannot be true. Therefore, hell is exothermic.

saw this on judy's blog: this is damm inaccurate! me scientist ? wa LAO..

You Should Get a PhD in Science (like chemistry, math, or engineering)

You're both smart and innovative when it comes to ideas.

Maybe you'll find a cure for cancer - or develop the latest underground drug.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

happiness? whose that? she doesn't knows me

2005-11-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

What Is Happiness?
“Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.”
- Abraham Lincoln

Happiness is what you feel when you're NOT feeling....

self-doubt; depressed; hateful; fearful; worried; unsatisfied; bored; grief; shame; guilt; discontent; anxious; annoyed; angry; irritated; stressed; frustrated; upset; down; sad; envious; or jealous.

Happiness = K X D X L

*K = (knowing who you are) -> D = (discovering your life's work) -> L = (learning not to tolerate what's not important).

That's the formula for happiness

**Know yourself

your true calling and

that you get what you tolerate.

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got the above from kimmy's site~ hmmm... it's quite cool though. if the above coefficent holds true... it means i am not a happy person at all...

self-doubt; depressed; hateful; fearful; worried; unsatisfied; bored; grief; shame; guilt; discontent; anxious; annoyed; angry; irritated; stressed; frustrated; upset; down; sad; envious; or jealous.

okay... i experience hell lot of the above mentioned... everyday? life's a serious piece of shit... okay.. i'm not happy by the Lincoln administration directive. haha. who the f cares? i don't.
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it's the 1st day of exam n i already feeling bored of it. how can one be happy during exam? well.. i did! haha
i have the most absurd dream one can ever have on the eve of an exam. 10x god i heed ah faith's advice..and force a 7 hr commitment on myself~

but first, let's share my dream... it's about the most dread paper of the year. it's south east asia paper! SE1101E for all my friends, and GEK1008 for me. it's the beginning of the exam. and the worst part came. the Qs... but wait a min~ we dun have any Qs papers..every1 appeared shocked. until tt is.. jan(ian) marzek prof came n verbally told us the Qs and provide material..
we faints!!!!

y? cos the Qs was: do a painting on southeast arts. incoropate wat u have learn from the module n put it into the picture. time limit 2 hrs.
issue is.. ther were no paints provided. only drawing block canvas. n markere?
yeah..markers? HUH
gimme a black pen or pencil. i'll do better man.. painting? i suck in it...
it's a situation: 50 marks max on pencil n pen.. 25 on paining... lol~

now..will my exam on SEA be so interesting as into drawing? i wonder...lol
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now for the jucie. many ppl asked abt soci.. hmm..
here's my view. i read like F from the soci txt n notes long ago.
i didn't use a crap from them? get it.
i just think it's a piece of music in soci.
what u learn read are USELESS.. they just seek to reenforce the concept u learn..
after all in exam.the qs r NV direct
of course i dun mean i ace it..

prob a get a B i think.. :( damm it~

sch atmosphere was tense today sia.. a lot of frags came early. tt's including me..cos the bus seem surpisngly Early...
every1 was mugging... lol..mugging last min.. i c ppl cursing.. swearing.. sweating like pigs...

while i was just lazing.slacking around..toking to engi friends from camp..
sat the paper slacking..looking at beatifual gals around me.. etc.. drink water... look around..dodo..slack..
endless cycle of looking..slacking..drinking..doing..

funny` no pressure~ just like the Os. no wonder i did decently in Os. whereas pressure exsited in As.. i almost screwed it up.well almost... else u prob won't c me in sch!~
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saw my new friends again. jen n weiqi. jen gave me a strange look n gave me weird ans when say hi.. i was saying this: hmm.. u looking familiar. jen right`
hmm.. her ans was "hi. blah blah blah" and gave a strange look n grin n a wierd ans...
i already know wat she was thinking of when she said tt~ ahh~ cute gals have werird thinkings.. they think too much...
but well.alas. nvm tt` it's prob a aftermath of their thoughts after pgp mug session.lol
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hmm.. when can i watch potter movie?
yawns...

Your personality is best represented by the
traditional Japanese Katana. You are brave
beyond words and rarely (if ever) act for your
own personal gain. Your honor is very
important to you, and you strive to better
yourself and help others. You try not to let
emotions get in the way of making a sound
decision, and are usually quite successful.

What sort of Weapon best Represents your Personality? (anime pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Congrats... you have an enemy... how wise of u

2005-11-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hmmm… it’s a first time, doing my blog entry on a bus on the way home on the eve of an exam. It’s pretty weird right? Typing and listening to “satanic” music where the whole world is probably wondering what the heck am I doing stuff that seems so urgent. I pondered upon that too… perhaps it’s the influence of the Harry Potter show that is currently airing and inspiring me. I have too much stuff in my head… and I deeply need a penvision( did I even spell that right? It’s some kind of memory storage in a jar or pot) [watch or read Harry Potter for heaven’s sake] that can store my memories.

It was productive today. There was lots of constructive mugger done by everyone in the small spooky confined study room. Made new friends…. Cool cool ppl~ Mission accomplished since the sociology exam pre-works all done. (I hope…) mugging…. An occasion glace at mugger mate… seeing matey mugging n serious… got motivated mug… and the cycle goes on... lol!

However, there were interruptions. Nothing tt a cool COKE and MANGA couldn’t handle. Took 1 hr.. reads manga.. listen to ALI PROJECT jap satanicish songs cool wind~ cool the blood red eyes..lol

I must admit to the world. It’s pettiness on my own part. But, it mattered! It’s a god damm breach of boundaries (what a geographical term!) it’s a good thing I have connections; I believe its call guan xi? (That’s Chinese business for you). Not to mention the excellent exploitation of the CMC technology called the hand phone (NM1101E) that has heightened the man of prowess in me (South East Asia studies for you) and increased the amount of prejudice and discrimination that I have painstakingly ignored!

So here’s my answer for my pettiness. I will do everything in my power to dwarf your already diminished your existence. I will not discredit you, but as I uncover your veil, its will also reveal the demon in you, all the truth in you (you have none I believe).

It’s war time and I have chosen my side. No more objective approaches to you. It’s time to take my stand and chose a side. I chose others. The war has begun.

You have made a petty enemy. A great, but somehow petty man. Let’s see how lameness will covered your ass this time round. Or do you need help from others to save your butt again? Up yours.

Congrats… you have just hit the shit list that has only 2 players. 1. betrayers. 2. treepassers. I salute u. be a betrayer; or a trepasser~ and u top my shit chart.

Yours wickly,

Your friendly enemy..

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

這就是我 - Flaws...

2005-11-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

我愛被人家保護
我愛被人家疼惜
我愛被人家愛著
我愛被人家重視
我或許小孩子了點
我或許依賴了人點
我或許任信了點
我或許極端了點
綜合幾上的條件
這就是我

saw this from a blog post when i was doing blog-a-hopping~ i feel it really meaningful~ cos that's what everyone wants right? or is it just the libra in me? hmmm... i wonder...
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anyway, it's mugging season from last week onwards.... cos exams are just around the corner~ how i envy my NTU mates who proberably finished their hell sessions...
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nothing eventful really happen this period that prompt to do some blogging~ well... there's bdays events... rebuliding my computer from scratch....nthing impt or signifance...until i was having this dream on a train ride home around 2-3 days ago~

so that's the theme for today~: Flaws

it's a well know theory that noone is perfect in this world, and everyone has some flaws unseen by people. i believe it's a matter of perception. in every stage of your life~ ya sure bore to find a person who YOU deem flawless~ he or she may think that they are flawed~ but YOU think not.

as long you think she isn't flawed.... she's not. she's perfect~ her self imposed flaws are just extra features that makes her more perfect for u...

throughout the span of my life till date, theres only 2 flawest K persons i know... one's up there (not god mind u... cos i nv seen him) one's on earth~ 2 very special person... 2 flawest person...

okay... i am going crazy.. but tt's my point~
what are deem as flaws are just another beauty concept in another~

so if u think u r flawed? u may not be so !

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

totally lost it ... say hello to 3 n byebye to 4 ...

2005-11-09T01:24:00.000+08:00

i'm totally losing it... i've gone totally bonkers... i'm totally uncool about it... i'm like totally totally stinking about it... i'm sound like my god-sis (she uses the word "I" in 9 of 10 sentences; she doesn't know i have a blog... hehe~ athena~ *bleach*)

it was totally depressing.... it started in the day... the burst pee stank remained althought it has minize a lot (courtesy to my poor neightnbour)... secondly... the stank made me really sick and i miss soci rererereremakeup tutorial cos i simply had to crawl to the bathroom to puke.... gross.... i did crawl... seriously. i swear

shit increased in school~ it's was like air raid attack for the continously 1 hour or so.... received 3 bombarments... the 1st was geo project~ shitty grades... the 2nd was chi biZ... shitty grades.. and i got back my sea essay at tutorial.. shittier grades --> i die then

the geo project shit was expected. the chi biz was terrible...cos y? this is a an extract from the comments i got from my old school dumbo ass Tutor "the chinese business is definatly NOT under SEIDGE!!! ur topic is not suitable" i was like..

1. WTF is ur freaking ass problem~? can't u accept tt fact i like my thesis n i suported my stand? Nooo.. u have rob my right to chose. U are too freaking OLD sch to have a mind of ur own~ ya right~ go n live on with ur narrow bandwidth floppy disk pea brain. a paper that thesis tt go against the ecture is unique n creative~ jsut because i wrote something tt is beyond wat u teach~ it does not meant it's wrong!

2. 2nd~ i acknowlegde tt fact tt my pts are generaly moe inclinced to anti chi biz n ther are some flaws to it. but hey~ do u have to emphaize n keep on ur regid insistence tt chi biz rocks? to hell with U

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sea paper.... i made a careless mistake..mix 1 thing wrong~ i earn tt bad grade~ sighs.. nthing to say~

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maybe i am too competitve for my own gd~ maybe i'm just too stress on other issues~ morale n some shit` maybe i'm overwhelm with pride.. maybe i just overzeal~

you may assume i come from a family who have high expections... you may think i am ambitious... you may think tt my family stress me up... or u just think i'm 1 high egoist fool

nope~ my parents dun give a shit abt who i do or chose~ i have complete freefom over my life... yeah.. complete control~ i can sleepoever.. do vices as long i'm inform them~ and not do anythin tt spolits the family name~ they care~ but they r liberal ppl~ totally freeform given to me~and thats a lot trust n faith in giving tt authority to me. i love u dad n mom~ However, the issue is... the power u grant me just exerts and unseen pressure on me... namely myself execting pressure on me.

handling other moral issues haven already made me breathless~ i dun need SINGLE MIND IDIOTS as my tutors!!! (read above segment)

there is indeed high competition in my pri sch n in my sec sch life~ well.. it's not high.. it's exceeding limitations. we compete in everything. games. stardees. standings.. name it.. we'll do it! althought i slacken a lot in jc..... the power play~ political struggle + the manipulate-ive environment has toughen every1 up~ in addition~ the achievements n recongiition of importance in me in the army had make me what i am now~ i was the best in my field. i know it` n every ranking beamer knows it~ otherwise.. y am i pulled everywhere?

--> eager to achieve, complete, outperform, out manoeuvre

to fall from the role of the best shaken me. indeed it did~ getting rejected in the past wasn't tt or shakening~ in fact~ it was just sianz~ this is too much~ my world cracked. scarred~justed like when K died~

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sure was a blessin when friends were there. the prescene helped. just being there.. talking stuff was cool~ it help even when no1 knows~ at least i was;t able to think of shit ~ u r e best my dear~

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but hey~, just when i though!!!t it was going to geo... we got back pratical 2 results.. shitty grades again.. tr has the cheek to laugh.. not funny mate~

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the whole days was falling BANANAS... yes.. i got straight Bs.. for everything today~ 4 X Bs. it's goodbye to 4 yrs n hello to 3 yrs nus life

yadayada..the world is falling~ dun bother telling me u got worse then me..cos u R not me after all? think u got a sadder expereicne..? buzz off..cos u dun know my life in army~ the hell i know n lives... been a trooper who's has ovehwleming garang training? and belittle my psot as comms storeman? fuck off~ i do all the fuck planning n handle all the shit from the Chief of guards army~ UDON"T . so fuck off~ think ya havinf shit now? i'm not interested~ this is my blog

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after reading all the shit? do u still love me?

well...i do love every1. indeed i go. yes... the guys are counted, for once

at least i know i have gd friends who bothered~ 10x peeps~ gals n guys(?) u rock

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

frozen...i need to fix it ! ! ! sense of uselessness...

2005-11-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

a friend of mine was feeling damm down these few days... the real impact came when when she got back 1 of the essay just today~ it dealt a killing blow to her ....

sometimes i feel that males are typically deprived of feeling for others ... we do not know how to console the opp sex .... we are not able to fit into their shoes ... we are not capable to resolve their problems.. we are incapable of doing anything tt will lessn the impact ... in actual fact.. we r USELESS in emotional cues... do u agree?

yeah sure.. we can put on our mr fix it caps.. but it's such matters that mr fix it can't fix~ it's an irony. and yes..we guys are known as com geek.. we are know as mr fix it... and we alwasy try to fix everything when ppl tell us their problems.. tt's the guy's way...

guys don need to cheer up` just a pat on their back.. hear them KBKB a bit.. n it's all solve` simple~ guys r simple in this way~ gers are slightly more complex creatures in the emotional sense.

not every1 knows that all we have to do is to listen to ur troubles... not all of us have such witts... even the few who do possess such strengths.. we really can't help it but put on MR FIX IT cap.

such is life. god make us all inperfect in ways...

i really wonder wat i can do for this partiucular friend~ can't do anything to cheer her up. so. i chose to give her cheeky flirtious remarks~ i hope it did her gd~ well.. i do like her a bit anyway~ lol~ as i do like all my other FEMALE friends.. (sorrie.. guys)

so, J-chan~ hope ya feeling better sia~ do cheer up~

p-s: my neighbour's pee toilet burst n still stinks despite after the plumber came!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

stink really spreads ... ... ... ... ...

2005-11-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

the whole room stinks~ wa LAO.....
1st my house water pipe burst.. and i spend 1 day of last week fixing it.. boring n WET.. althought it was fun~
noW>> MY neightbours toilet pipe buRST.. and the stinks of pee SUCKS!

i can't mug or work or stardee in this situaion? i'm fading from pee smell.. gracious!

tt it.. i must mug in sch tml~ meet up with ppl like annie-kun, judy-chan..... i hate muggin...
there;s so many other more exciting thing like sleeping..movie.. go out.. slacking..chilling.. gal watching... etc..
mugging is definatel not cool~ sbsianz....

y must we mug? Y? cos of the existance of demand n supply curve.. when they is increase supply of scholarss in sch who get straight As...... we c a raise in the demand of SG students mugging to get As...
i wonder how my life wil be when i face those arseholes when i take my chi minor mods... argh.. pure~ thye will lower my gpa or cap score... damm it..

k.. every1.. cheer UP! we can make it! n kick some ass!
now time to sleep n dream of nice things n hang around with cool ppl~
ciao~

p-s jay songs r nice~ n tml's sucide day with all the papers coming back.. i better get an cap of 4.. else.. i m dead.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

fatality~ bring it on!

2005-11-05T02:12:00.000+08:00

Playing: Yoko Kanno - Sora

hmmm it's time for a new song, and long overdue for a new screencap on mainframe (not to mention a new skin...i'll do it after exams okay? in the mean time... pls bear with it) Why? cos it's time to move on. It's finally time to move on from gaming n playing to mugging or working. ppl have to grow up after all. we can't just be kiddy all our life.. meanwhile.. let's play a bit more -_-

working? yeah.. u get the idea. working = mugging. this time.. i have better to cite and give credit: "I pefer to term myself as a worker, not a mugger" (Faith, 2005, endless pages). does that style reminds u all of APA style? lol!

anyway.. it was total chaos from the moment the alarm clock intruded into ZZzz land~ well, i set the wrong time last night b4 i slept~ cos i was supposed to attend my last cheena biz lecure when commernces at 1200 sharp.. and i have to wake up lik 2.5 hrs earlier.. the last time to hang (chill) with them.

0930 wake. all the way to 1030.. prepare myself... n make myself get used to the sunlight.
1030 - 1145 ride to sch
1145 - 1200 chop seats n CHILL

but it turn out tt i've set my alarm dear to ring at 1030.. a complete clash of schelude since i am supposed to wake at 0930... had to msg ppl i'm not coming since i sort off say i was coming... msg some guy to chop seats for the rest. *ya.. tt moron didn;t reply with a simple ya. ass right? dun u hate it when ppl dun acknowlege u? terrible* .smacks wm

anyway.. it really turn out to be a blesing in diguise~ how so? cos it was a 55 min review lect which will be webbie cast..lol! i laff when i saw the length on ivle.. hirlaous...
i can almost imagine those who rush there at 1215 ++ to lect..n miss half of it! LOL

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i just had the strangest notion~
i am beginning to desites men.. wel.. not cchsm guys.. u r too cool~ not tpjc guys.. of course tt dun mean my og mates in nus too (every1 rock to some extend...well i think so..for now i guess...lol)

i'm refering to some associate, a particular associate. you're not even my friend. you act innocent. does innocent actions. try to look innocent.. but hey, you are NOT. All your pure evil intentions. dun think i dun' know. BRING IT ON DUDE. what an ASS holeyou are! i'm glad i no longer had to look at ur stinking face. BoooOOo. now fark off

it's just takes a single rotten egg to bring down the whole civiallation.

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something funnY n weird:
just when i wanted to do a nerd hairstyle.. 2 friends wanted to change hairstyle~ lol~ a gal and a guy. the gals wans to dye her hair. they guy wan to shave bald. WA.. happening siA!

maybe i shall keep hegdehog head for a longer period of time and make it stand TALLER. just for fun~

yes indeed. i am weird. and i do have weird friends~
r u my friend? then u must be weird~
*beware of XXX, or u're become weird* - [Faith, 2005, endless pages]

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with this.. i end my entry for the day~ [it's 0243 am]

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Trick or Treat!!! You're have just been blocked!

2005-10-31T23:51:00.000+08:00

it's time for happy happy hollowEEEEeee.... trick or treat!!!

well... from the topic~ i just trick.. well.. i just gave some guy some arse...yeah.. dun mess with me and buZZzz off dude~

now, let me be childlish on a special night like this. A pity i never do like disclosing the bugger's name. lol. well... i just rewarded HIM with a block on msn. Here's the FINGER to u asshole...

this dude 1 weird chap... time and time again.. when he is online. and when i'm online.. he terrorizes me by msging me. he bugs me abt the anime Prince Of Tennis aka POT in short. faggot will alwasy pester me to send him the anime episodes tt he lacks or can't find~

time after time i explain that i don't have it on my hardisk, cos i have transfter it to cd format. futhermore, i have loan the series to another friend. now.. this moron will bugged me in harassing my friend for it. what a ass hole...

dispite his nonsense, i entertain him with his crapshit. i try helping him with the episodes via e internet to resolve his troubles. but NOOooo.. tt jerkball just whack me back when tt particualura part was not there... he whines to me... as of he has the right to do So. THAT's ISSUE NUMBER ONE>

ISSUE NUMBER TWO> after i have done all these .. he says this..:
"someppl dun 1 2 help loh, wat can i do". tt made me so pissed...
i dun see the obligations to help tt screwball.. he is obviosly a thickhead. he acts like a dumb kid~ a low intell~

now.. tt has successfully earn u a BLOCK on my list~ frag off dimwit!

u just hit the shit list for KBKBing and not appriehiating the effect done, for being throwing a tranturm at me.. i despite guys like u~

p/s: hmm... i am surprises.. my command of english for the bad has rocketed to NS state!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Guys Awaiting Your Sympathy and Little Kids Symdrome

2005-10-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

i am indeed an irregular blogger~ well.. that's me! it's been a week since i last blog sia~ 7 days... if i drag some more, i will prob need to do a T-loan for fingers to do my maths. just fyi, especially the gals, T-Loan is army lingo. basically, T-loan = temporacy loan.

anyway, cut the crap. there's actually a zillion issues i would like to blog for the past week. too many events.. so many that i can hardly remember~ all the urges to blog, yet when i enter this main page.. i chickened out.. well.. i wonder what i can really say online.

it's weird that i can't key in all the drastica moments when i would really like KILL some1. yeah.. it's K-I-L-L. my tutors, my lectures, ppl i know~ etc~ just anyone. it's sure a blessing that all the major shit on the essay and projects are coming to an end~ so blissed~ for the few who still have so struggle on~ i send u my blessings! may god blesss U. for assholes i know, (hmm.. dun think i know any), just subsitiure bless with BLAST. wahahaha!
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anyway, interesting archey session ended last thurs~ a pity, only 3 of us went~ the other2-1 eye pain, 1 overload with essay didn't really made it~ hai~ anyway.. i am so going to miss my thurs joyful session~ and my cool fri session too when chi biz lect ends~

heyhey.. now that i mentioned chi biZ lect.let me shall a eyepooping story i heard from some1. oh ya.. better not mentioned e name.. haha~ scandals... big head. here it goes:

QS 01: one day, doreamon was walking pass.. he saw hello kitty on the streets and waves hi... but hello kitty did not say hi back to doremon, Y?
ANS 01: cos hello kitty doesn't has a mouth

QS 02: so now hello kitty went back and sew a mouth. she was determined to say hi back to doreamon. this time, it was doreamon who acted 'dao' and did say anything to hello kitty?
ANs 02: cos doreamon has no ears!!!

quite !@$&!%^!_!()$... to think this come from my friend~ hahaha! really scandally true!

i am indeed to going to miss my thurs n fris... sobs!
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had the hell of 1 day. i just can't stand 2 types of ppl.
world enemy no 1: weakenlings, wussies
world enemy no 2: little kids

01: silly dumbos who dun have a mind, and is mentally weak! flickle head arseholes; G-A-Y-S=:> i read them somewhere on a blog! these dun refer to guys who prefer man to women. in generally, gays are cool, until they hit on me. i meant other type of gays..--->
Guys
Awaiting
Your
Sympathy

02: ppl who act like kids. ya.. screw u.. thinking ya mature,, when u have kids pea size brains aren't cool! i know lots of beautiful ppl who look small n kiddy who are defineatly more mature then U ppl.

shall not elabaorate anymore.. it's just piss me off~
msg me.. maybe i will tell u~ hahaah~
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and that's tt!
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hmmm~ geo pract 02 cleared! cheeros to all mates!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Quiz Time: It's a good week to begin with~

2005-10-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

I saw this cool blog on a friend's blog... so i decide to take this test too... and then... i got a result that was the exact OPPOSITE of hers'? WTF! now may will seize this change and belittle me again... argh!

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate

You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

nothing much said, but then, i do like flaming once in a while....

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

I just like the design.... i'm dreamy~ but.. better start enterain me!

Your Hair Should Be Red

Passionate, fiery, and sassy.
You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

I'll love to do that... but then... when red fades... it's horrible.. imagine fading to PINK ? OH MY GOD!!!

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

Bo Bian.. agree ma.. i'm passive.. tt's y.. sobssobs..

Your Birthdate: October 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.
The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.
There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.
Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.
You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.
You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive.
You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

ya.. i am flickle.. so.. catch my attention!!!

Your World View

You are a happy, well-balanced person who likes people and is liked by others.
You question whether many conventional views on morality are valid under all circumstances.
You are essentially a content person.

Sometimes, you consider yourself a little superior.
You are moral by your own standards.
You believe that morality is what best suits the occasion.

What Is Your World View?

morales... i am constrained by morals... if u know me slightly better.. u get the point.. morales.. i hate U

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

i dunno about that... well.. let's c how my sad life goes..

Your Career Type: Conventional

You are orderly and good at following a set plan.
Your talents lie in working with written records and numbers in a systematic, orderly way.

You would make an excellent:

Bank Teller - Bookkeeper - Court Clerk
Mail Carrier - Post Office Clerk - Secretary
Timekeeper - Title Examiner - Typist

The worst career options for your are artistic careers, like comedian or dancer.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

not true!

Your Personality Profile

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.
Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.
You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive.

A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.
You are good natured and people enjoy your company.
You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

okay..true ba

You're a Depressed Drunk

You know that distinct taste of tears and vodka real well.

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

at least i belive indecently.. i jsut stone!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Sharks! >> 5000 barrier

2005-10-21T16:44:00.000+08:00

My Ears Are Blessed With: "Princess Mononoke - Legend Of Ashitaka Theme"

senseless ... the strug gle, the need to have company now, and the desire to be alone. confusing right? maybe it just have to be hanging around the correct company~ haha~
so far, F Ms G Js A W K B are my prefered company~ hmmm~ hmmm~

well.. those were thoughts when i board the extremely crowd train this morning. The squishy crowd freaks me out~ or rather.. irriates me. there's are times i deserve to be alone.

it's a big day. and boy, i have the greatest shock of my life during ssa lecture. not because there were cute ppl around. hmm.. i dun meant hedgehog (big head, hehe) :>

cos.. the this week's lecture basiacally explains almost all of my pts for this topic's essaY. I almost faint from shock. sharks man!

slipeed into depression~ wtf sia... i researched n did an essay.. and the lovely lecturer did a close summery to my essay.. well. almsot halF. YUCK! a friend mentioned, wa. at least u got QC, to know it before the lect~ grace~haha

in the end (sadly) i just spend the last 2 hrs editing n adding n deling some stuff... the mission to start on SEA esay n geo practial was gonE

WAT a HELLDAY! at least, i know i have cool friends~

oh yar... tis site has hit the 5000 mark.. a great achievement for a insigfiancant whiner~

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

white, pink and yellow!!! The story of "THE ONE"

2005-10-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

flamingoes are white. they are NOT white! let me educate everyone here this. the base color of flamingoes are white. it's what they eat and when they are in huge water bodies tt make tt appear pink to the naked eye. it's an issue of pigments. haha~

was a fun day~ this theory was the cook of the day at archery~ oh ya.. i must really insist.. yellow is my favourite color~ and i'm proud of it~ cos i'm a yellow yellow dirty fellow` lalal~ *jingles~

the dye on the head turn black all of a sudden...~ sobs~ well.. it lasted 3 weeks... sighs~ at least i comment tt black suits better from 3 friends today~ guess tt's gd i think~ shall trust them.

anther said i look beng~ hoihoi~ nvm~ it's okay to look beng` just as long i'm not beng ba~ haah~

it's 0200 hrs.. no wonder i am feeling cracky~

the creepy 1 from archery came late today~ i christian him "THE onE". it's prounced as "D one" not as :the one:. cos he's unique~ using the wrong prounication sounds him everywell. he is 1 creepy asshole~ yeaUP!

picture this scene. a row of my friends will be shooting arrows in our lane. take note. a whole row of 4 pretty girls. (i'm blessed, somewhat) "The One" will appear and start shooting on his lane. After a while, he appears to stop closer to the gals... closer n closer n closer, he edges towards the gals... until he's shooting at OUR lane. he's so close that he can almost breath our air. HOW gross. it's true~

aha~, when "The One" appeared.. every1 freak outed. well.. maybe not bella n kathy~ but. mel.jinxun.me sure did~ and then as expected.. "The One" join our lanes... haha~ i almost fainted~ jinxun the GREAT then approached him.. n said: " EXCUSE ME DOYOU MIND if YOU join the OTHER GALS in the END laneS? " it's so funny~ the verdict is final.~ i have the most interesting and coolest friendS! blissed!

the deal to watch movies was cancellled... was kind of sad. but then, there's other chances... i guesss... lol~

surprising... i feel threatened today~ until i clarify some stuffs with someone~ feeling super blissed now~ at least the threat is gone~ hehe~

okay..time to zzz n have fun tml in chin biz lect with more cool mates!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

eh.. i should be stardeeing!

2005-10-18T01:17:00.000+08:00

bitching mode tune on. hegdehog overdose. killer grades. there's are the 3 factors tt making me blog tonight despite the need to sleep and awake early later in the morning~ lol ~

did a zilion bitching events today~ lol ~ it's was kindof funny~ be surprise, guys can bitch really well too. although, we just dun term it as "bitching". we refer it as chatting on old times. strange, the irony that is present. here's and idiotic phrase: Bitching daily drives sickness away! all of sudden i'm reminded of shazzy baby and our sluttness bitchyness from jc days~ lol ~

talk abit more on the ride home... and then i reliease from the smile i had when i sharing some stories.. i dun really hate the army after all~ the experience i gain from my enviroment was priceless. the ppl i face.. the ppl i know.. the pain n joy we all shared.. all contrubute to wat i am now. maybe i just hate my CO. lol
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hegdehog mode~ my friend is doing an haircut tt's really short~ cool~ so tml during class, we will be the only 2 hegdehogs! this is so COOL! can you image that? and... the surprise even better if i reveal her gender~ she's a gal~ WOOooOOOOoo . 2 little hedgedogs sitting togeter in class with 4 other mates~ we all rocK. just in case she's feeling big head tt my previous entries was pasteled with her name on it~ i shall not say her name out... NoPE.. JUDY.. i will not SAY u have a SHORT hairstyle, nope, JUDY, i will not SAY hedgehogs ROCK. i will not tell the world tt JUDY is my FRIEND! heehehh~
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ah..killer grades.. tmls e day i will get back my sociology grade papers... the feeling suck..i am just gonna fail... althougt i dread it. i seriously hope i can pass it with a B grade... btu then.. murphey will alwasy into pplay with his strange law.. sianz...

and then.. it's time to collect the ssa2203 project marks too~ sianeZzzz... ed was like saying..have confidence.. aahha~ but in reality. tt chap is prob more worried abt it then me~
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by then.. later is a better day... at least the hedgehog will be fun~ yeaH
and i finish my silly essay.. well.. 1 of them~ cheeroS

spikES!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

KT-inG. ^&!&)_*)!#%!@+$ and then i was THINKING

2005-10-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

funny topic i guess. simple rationale for this weird topic heading. cos right at the moment i enter blogger, some1 msn me. None other then the infamous wong kai ting, aka kuang apai wong (or apai in short), aka wongey, aka KT. haha~ funny nicks i have for my conhert of weird friends~

and i thought he's(yah.. it's a HE... [do take note of the word "it"] finally awoken to his senses to msg me on his new life in cambrigde, the F-er has to ask me to send him dota newest map. yeah, the word is correct to be used on him, F-er i meant. For the 13 years i know him, half the time i heard him display his command of the word F until i'm quite profound and well verse in tt culture too~ haha~

and so, i delicated the top segment of this blog entry to him. wait. did i remember to explain y he's 1st nick was apai wong? hehe~ simple. there's this history lesson we had in sch in the gd cchsm days on thailand. apparently, kuang apaiwong was this loser thailand policatial figure guy who was kick out of power as many as 3 times and back in power again. we label this fighter on KT loh.

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haha~ yeah. did i mention i hate TPJC? yeah.. i did~ haah~
now again. TPJC suck

if i ever plan to have kids... they will go CCHSM and then to SAJC then to NUS arts~ but's tt's another story~ to give justice to my jc days. the friends i had were nice n fun`~ i just hate sch life there. tt's all~ haah

hmm.. going overboard liao.. wonder's if TPJC will sue me. well... u can't. cos i never SAY tt tpjc is a BAD SCH. i never SAY some tpjc teacers SUCK. well.. i just dun like the sch.
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i'm bored. tt's y~ but then, the main focus on tonight's (morning actually.. it's 0200 hrs after all)
not on KT or my anti_TPJCism. i just got some thoughts. that's all~

i got this cool friend (actually friends) who did an analysis on me, after reading my blog. 10x dear friend. and of course to the rest of u out there. she says this~ i'm different from who i am in real life as her friend and friends and a totally diff entity online. got another mate, rabbit who says that i'm an angry man online` haha~

well.. all true~ i have split personalites ~ tt's all~
but then, the main focus not on me being mentally insane. it's just tt there are people out there after all that cared. ppl who really bothered to break down the defensive barriers to know us.

i quote from another friend on her blog. it's something like this:

"The wall was built with cheerfulness, with optimism, with laughter and with jokes.
And it was built on silence never to be told."

it's true. and that's that. and i see a friend who shares the same pain.
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had this thought going on in my head since the last entry~
first statement : we can love/like someone for no reason. it's comes and goes --> i guess it's somewhat true
my second statement: we can hate/dislike someone for no reason. it's just de javu (did i spell correctly?) ---> i finally think it is true!

i remember when i first really dislike and hate this some1 in the cchsm days. it began like this:
i dun like him for no reason. no reason, really. i just dun like him. okay, fine. tt's tt. but still we got along as friends somewhat. he's kind of the say wat he thinks type. cool guy i thought. got along better with him. within he betrayed me. dumb MF-er didn't reliease he betrayed me. playing ignorance. i hate him till now.

and then i grow up in life. meet some1 else in my life who became an associate outside (notice how i dun use the term - friend). same issue here... i dun like this person. no reason. but then, from the previous bad experience, i refuse to have much contact with him maybe i fear i will be betrayed again. somewhat. maybe tt's y i'm overly cautious with some ppl.

i fear befriending ppl against my instincts. i am cautious. sorrie

at least cchsm tpjc nus mates are trust worthy still... still i guess...

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

"FAN ren" we are just mortals afterall ...

2005-10-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

it's a weird day. archery was only somewhat fun~ yeah... somewhat. with 3 members down, the mafia grp got bored. true, we did shot more, even improve a bit... but with 3. life was simply dwelling on a thin thread.

heard some stuff from a friend~ led me thinking to this ----> no wonder i often see him around~ haha~ it's a pity i can't elaborate on this. haha

it's funny~ we can all go haywire and crazy when we dun harbour thoughts... once the evil thoughts start coming.. out thinking changes.. we feel different, and act differently. sighs.. such are the complex world of men. no wonder mortals are called "FAN REN" = problematic people.

i got a bit crazy today~ asked ppl to watch movie~ was actually eyeing the show "European Gigolo". mel suggested "The 40 Yr old Virgin". hahah~ and it led me to think.. poor me still at stage at the edge of 40. sobs.sobs

asked may to watched.. diaoZ.. she ends at 2030... then i decides to jio faith along.. she's bz~ haah~ so sianz.. no 1 wan to watch~ and then we changed it to next thurs...

maybe this time, every1 will come.. and every1 will watch.. just maybe i hope..

zi gu ren sheng sui wu you
wei wo wei chi ren sheng fan you fan
zi ying zi sheng can sheng le xin mo

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

and then it dawn on me, i am an empath

2005-10-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

Empathy is the ability to 'read' people, be in-tune with or resonate with others, voluntarily or involuntarily, aware or unaware of one's empath capacity. The ability to scan another's pysche, for thoughts and feelings, for life occurrences past, present and future. Many empaths are unaware of how this actually works, and have long just accepted they were 'sensitive' to others.

Empaths are highly 'sensitive', and this is the term commonly used in describing one's abilities (sensitivity) to other's emotions and feelings, have a deep sense of 'knowing' that accompany empathy, are often compassionate, considerate and understanding to others. Everyone has this natural ability, though many never utilise this.

That's what I am. I am an empathy. I just reliease that when I was dozing off in the libraray with the gang. That's y, for now, I totally feel like deleting the wilfully entry I had made today. There's post number of the day if you happen to notice.

Sometimes this ablity surfaces when i least expected it. No wonder I was feeling so irritated all of a sudden in school. I heated up and was fuming like no other's business. It's a wonder I did't start flaming my friends on. But then, I'm really glad I not flame any1.

So why did I finally reliease that i'm an empath and not just assuming I had the male form of PMS? Cos my mood was swinging from one point to another. And this feeling is scary.

Morning, I was feeling as excited as every1 else. SEA lecture, I was feeling extreme irritation when "copyright" gal came over. Apparantly, faith's feel the same feelings. Session, went to the lib~ happen to bump into the lively duo~ one called out and greeted~ one was lost and in a blank.

Extreme pleasure followed by extreme saddness. Sometime was definately wrong. 1 of them was feeling gd. 1 was obviously having a sour mood.

And then, I end up feeling quite sour at the end of the day. Sour till I got home. Empathy in play.

Watched Jaslyn on the Jean Yip slimming TV show. Felt extremely happy a long lost friend finally made her day~ happy~

DAMM.... i think i am an empath. Hope this ablity faints away soon..... and prays that it lies in peace and silents for a while. Feeling the pain of others sucK.

am i am empath? or am i just thinking too much today? lack of sleep? maybe not..
guess i am an empath after all

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

k!, now i'm mad and PMS mode is on FULL BLAST!!!

2005-10-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

it's odd izit? 2 entries on the same day. and at a short interval of just 6 hrs. this sounds just like an anime forum update. but the again. read the freaking topic~

PMS mode is on FULL BLAST!

hate it when i am like this. and i will seriously ignore every1 of your frags outside! every single toad out there. including the female counterparts...

SEA was sickening... there's this tutor who was happily distributing the report papers... and then some copyright bugger was there asking.hey much did u get... she was so freaking excited.. and then i remember she was the 1 happily leeching from us... me and my friend was like... THE... ... the thought of throwing the mental thought of scram sweep my minds off.... DIAOZ

hate ppl who try to shown off... when they did get exactly gd grades... but then again.. i got higher then u ..friends's stalker.. haha... now go get a life.~

damm it....

soci's lect later.. heard we're getting back our papers... tt's simply suck to the core.

lib's playing traunt... all books were sourced out... now i am am beginning to agree with ppl~ deadLINE- so hang me!

stinko school.... u suck~ but then again.. tml's going to be a better day.. i hope.. u better be..

sianz 1/2!

PMS mode is still on.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

a DE? Inspirating Thought!

2005-10-12T07:24:00.000+08:00

and then i got really bored with life and did a follow up idea with a friend~ and a sick idea it was~ imagine breakfast on a wed morning when i have to normally wake up at 0545 to reach school barely on time. oh ya. just for those who have no idea where i live, i happen to reside at BEDOK, and nus is at CELMENTI. and so, this bored guy woke up at 0500 hrs today.

did a litle blog hopping as i was waiting my mates to come. discover tt there's some1 i know who's gd in sketching at too~ diaoZ. and i thought tt was my trademark in the jc art days. black and white and messy art was my cup of tea~ haha~ now this is interesting~

i think i will join the www.xrqj.com this season~ i must brush up on my CHEENA-NESS! haha! maybe, just for once i will conherate my thoughts into a simple simple song. Who knows, this song might get back and i this finally 21 yr will get world wide recongition~ wahaha~

mabe this will be my theme.
a small little girl, surrounded by chaos and killings raving on.
she hides a small dark cave with no even candlelights for company.
all shes has is enternity dread and blood.
how she yields for company from the living, but all losts forever. .... ... ...

this is crazy right? actually i happen to get this idea when i was tossing around in bed last night~
some1 i know just remember of something.

this person look strong on the outside despite the fragile appearance.
but, she is really fragile on the inside.
just how many really knows what's going on in her little world
turmoil!
and yet, she wears this mask that protrays hers as "happy" as she surrounds herse lfs with friends.
but, is she happy?
In that crazy world of hers, she desires happiness that will come true.
not by falsehood, not by deception, not by pity
will such a day ever come?

ever know some1 like tt? maybe we know the same people sia.....
sad sad life

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Suzuka - 14, i learnt dubbing subtitles!

2005-10-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

justed watch suzuka - 14 anime. sianz...
i feel like like asahina suzuka ... giving blessings.. what an irony man. if u guys never watched the anime... u won't understand a crap anyway..

finally, i learn how to to a dubbing session~ dubbing - additin subtitles to raw anime or raw avi data files. in layman terms, it simply means inserting readable subtitles into the shows, so tt ppl who dun understand the language can watch the show!

so happy~ successfully dub the DVD rip of final fantasy advent children liao~ still remeber the1 st time i watched it for graphics at home. 2nd time at ys 21's bday. 3rd in archery when i caught some glimpse on bella's notebook. tt was memorablE~

4th time was today~ yeah~~~~~~ cheeros....

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

WO Season II

2005-10-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

just an random urge to say the word FUCK. this may seem freaking uncool to some people. but then, it's my blog~ i earn the fragging right to screw things up~

geo is settle.. more or less~ mate tidying up the overall product~ i feel blissed~ 1 down
cnm mini segment completed ~ i guess ~ i feel blessed ~ 1 more down
tml's SEA tutorial ~ i am still confused over my damm research essay~ wat Qs can i chose? - DEAD
ssa dues on 21 oct ~ fuck. no freaking idea wat to do.. only 1 research bk. i am fucked hard!

life sucks. this is all.

hey ice.. if ya readin this.. SHhhhhhhhhh

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note of the day: women have terrible terrible accurate instincts~t

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

random thoughts|--> the invicible element: WO - women

2005-10-10T02:23:00.000+08:00

just when u think you start to understand the new chemical formula; element; properties a little. They start a violent reaction. BOOM they go, and explore.

argh~>>. such a complex species.. maybe i should start hangin out with the psy girls.. then, maybe they can enlightened me. it's prob got to be how the brains of men and women are constructed.

it's obvious that this is true. similar events tt will occcur on 2 specis will yield diff results.
guys accept it as goodwill~ cool abt it.
females think otherwise and make them complex. and fume..

i dun understand u my friend... sighs...
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feeling quite gd.~ it seems tt geo project is in it's final stages~ so 1 down.. 3 more to do!

working on some nm1101e now for this thurs meetup~
praying i can start on my ssa soon...
praying i can finally make up my mind to settle on qs for my SEA essay. and establishing a decent thesis to consult my tutor~
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oh ya... Oi.. fuji fujiE hope u survive ur army days man~ ya're my cchsm guy who share similar thinking as me.. dun let tupid army training lose urself~
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afterthought: y do all cchsm guys i know face similar shit and are somewhat unhappy? siaoZness
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hopes tt every1 is happy~ yeah.. every1 but mE~
look forward to archery games on thurs.. thurs is afterall. destress days~

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

thur's gd! fri's gd too!

2005-10-07T21:17:00.000+08:00

just wanna share this joke i got from a friend in NS...

Lee Sum Wan : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan?
Mr. Saw Lee : Yes, you can speak to me.
Lee Sum Wan : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!
Mr. Saw Lee : You are talking to someone! Who is this?
Lee Sum Wan : I'm Sum Wan .And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent.
Mr. Saw Lee : I know u are someone and u want to talk to anyone!But what's this urgent matter about?
Lee Sum Wan : Well just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother, Noe Wan was involved in an accident.Noe wan got injured and now Noe Wan is being senttothe hospital.Right now Avery Wan is on his way to thehospital.
Mr. Saw Lee : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital from the accident that isn't an urgentmatter!You may find this hilarious but I don't have timeforthis!
Lee Sum Wan : You are so rude! Who are you?
Mr. Saw Lee : I'm Saw Lee.
Lee Sum Wan : You should be sorry. Now give me your name.
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friday's a good day... lol! saw xinyi at busstop~ she's power sia.. join wushu~ lol! cheerOs girl!!

and judy said my hedgehog hair is nice~ hahah! 10x!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

wed's a bad day~ yucK!

2005-10-06T02:52:00.000+08:00

bad start in the day.. it was raining... if only i've just carried on sleeping!!! then life won't be tt terrible~

terrible~.... terrible~.... terrible~....

sianZ in the morning, sianZ in the afternoon, sianZ in the evening.

heard a theory abt gentleman during from soci lect. lol~ gentleman never existed in this world. they are only nice people. there are NO gentlemens...cos all gentlemen's are either sheep in wolf clothings...or they are hypocrites.... and i hate them BOTH.

heard something else. either some ppl are stubborn, or some simply have ZERO EQ. tt's all i can really comment.

Worse off at night...Worse off at later night... Worse off now...

so now, i conclude. i dun like ppl with low EQ, i dun like hypocrites, and i dun like gentlemens.
hands off my friends jerkballs

tml will be a better day... tml BETTER be a better day... oR elSE!

some ppl are morons...

now, let's eat some chocolates... and shoot some gentlemens

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

shit

2005-10-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

wa... quite interesting to me today~ hmm~delightful if i dun really think of anything beyond dreams.. i pretty accepted this reality~ but then, it's still stinks to think of it i think~.. hmm... thoses who understands this... hahah~ those who dun understand this... ponder on it!
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facts i observed these days: terriority rights exist in this world! those are those who are 4ever crossing borders..

take for example.. a dog pees at an area to etablish the link to other dogs tt this place is his terrority. a cat scratches an area to mark her region.
similarly. human do the same thing. just observe around.

i hate it when people oversteps the limits and borders... extending ur hand over another's realm dun really make one like you more. unless ya're welcome into the cirlcle. putting a nice front and happily crawling through suck. be contented with ur madala chap~ and extend ur claws to ur vitims..not my friends. jerks
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hmm.. another friend of mine msg me todayz~~ was cool~ cos i' didnt really get to tok to her in real life. not much anyway~maybe i just dun know wat to say to her abt. but tt's not e pt tonight.. she's a really nice gal.. but's it's obvious that she has some problems of her own~
Cheer Up friend~ not every1's shit..
some ppl are shit on e outside, but they taste like chocolates on e outside --> me? and our mates~
some ppl look like chocolates on e outside but taste like shit --> hate those`

cheers ger!
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got really sianz all of sudden today... and i went crazy. cut my hair SHORT..and dye it copper~
here's a provoking thought... i msg some ppl i belive i link better with . particular 1's who dyes their hair...however, the ans i receive's back's unversal..ask stylist... diaoZ
if ppl with lovely color hair dun know.. i wonder who else could help?
in e end.. i chose copper..
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a friend asked me a Qs in discussion room today: who do i like in our og. diaoZ. like i would say it out...cos every1's was there in the room well..almost...cos some went out for a short while~... i almost fainted when faith aka yangrong said tt> and was strongly supported by cliff.. haahah~

just imagine if i ans truthfully. it's the break of friendship~ and start of extreme awkardness...
i should just be contented with dreaming and mugging!
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and of course, 10x to those few who know's what's going on in my skull..

in conclusion: i look like shit, but i taste like chocolate / honey~ [but, who will know tt? only JJ n ivan i guess...]

p/s: to this funny person i know from ssa2203: see triangles! hhe!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

5 people i meet in heaven ... devilcatz aka moonlighter is happY

2005-10-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

playing: XING GUANG - S.H.E
the day has pass. it was a good day. really good. so far in life, things have turn out fine. when i expected something, it never comes. when i just dun care anymore, life takes a big turn and gives a somewhat happy story.

finally called up athena, my army days gan meimei~ hehe~ cos i didn't pick up calls these 2 days..since i was sick with fever and couldn't bother to call her back or sms her. turn out she remembered too~ xie xie NI! 10x to kimmy boy too!

went go for project meeting today with mates. things turn out rather smoothly. when every1 left, i got e chance to have a gd talk with guoann~ delightful chat with him. it's funny what we talk about. just maybe, we are one of a kind. maybe not. haha
and then we saw cliff, and chat a bit. that poor chap has to juggle his never commitments of vball and his stardees...not to mention his fieldtrips, overload of projects and essay including his social relationships with whoever whoever. haha ---> believe me.. i hear stuff~
saw Jon~ he's e best! 10x dude again, for today and for hearing me out when i was down long time ago.

went retail therapy with mel n faith later at 5. crap more stuff~ heard funny stories of the day~ i was actually quite happy to hang around with them. walkwalkwalk.. see bags... and we saw this absolutely ROCKS crumpler bag..which is YELLOW orange in COLOR and which cost 149 DOLLARS? mel was saying this bag's like made of parachute material..and lasts... it's so nice..sososososososo nice.... haiZ...if only i dun change my stuff as often as i change clothes.. i would have bought it and pampered myelf today~ haha~ went on the day to see e adidas bag 55 bucks i was eyeing since last month. with the thoughts of crumpler bag on my mind... i was sianZ. but then..the adidas did look good.. they have gd taste sia..those 2 mates~

walk and walk and walk, and then, we saw Kathy~ she dash as soon as we saw her..so shocked..lol~ and i was puzzled when she gave a lame excuse to dash away.. haha.. was in fact going to ask her to join in e retail therapy thingy~

walked on.... i was actually been a FOLLOWER the whole day... haha~ and was blindly lead to mashaE~ and saw them there..a surprise!!!!

stun, shocked and pure blessed joy~kathy n christopher!!!! so happy i treated every1 to eat~lol~ 10x 10x to all of ya who made the effort! emotional rewards~!

movie was great. turn out tt were ppl who appreiahte the show~ corpse bridE! yeah~ danny elfman piano is nice~

i will alwasy remember today and all of you~

overall evaluation: tired by happy!
speech for today: a dream came half true~ 10x to every1~

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

and then i reliease tt i am old ... an end...

2005-10-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

不知不觉中，渐渐发现自己真的老了。真困扰！！！

第一个记得的，尽然是个超可爱的友人。真细心！
第二 my dearest iby aka ivy grandaughter!
第三个当然是 snowpiggy!雪猪！！！哈哈
第四个来自个沉没的男人。谢谢你
第五个是甘妹妹！ JenJen!!!
第六第七 and eight and nine and ten 。。。哈哈哈！ special 10x to juUuuuDdddEeeeYY judY who knew somehow another!!!~!~!

谢谢你们！是你们让我感到温暖

突然，我有了一个愿望。嗨。。。无奈
if only wishes could be dreams and know my dreams will come true...

but this wish will never happen.
after all, wishes not not dreams.
dreams will only come true late in the night~

as a matter of fact, i guess i just have to be a happy chap in my dream.

in my dream. i can be with any1 i wanna be with.
if only my life was a dream, how wonderful it will be~
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it's gonna be more work later..with the meetings for project..readings.. haiZ.. just y can't i relax n chill a bit this week? just this week. where i can spend some quality time with the ppls i wanna be with.. just this week. then i can go back and b a mugger! arghZZZz
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i justed discovered something. i have changed. slightly more daring then b4.
no special meaning. just surprised. i doing things quite diff from b4.
no longer am i tongue tied at particular situations. all all situations, i can just crap on, hiding my real feelings.
but then again, is't it unhealthy to hide everything on how i feel? keeping everything within.
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and then, i join arts camp and o-week. and i learn tt i should open up more. and i meet every1 who made a impact on my life. i thank god for knowing the lot of ya
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surrounded by cchsm dudes, arts friends. i feel blessed.
let's hope every1 stays together always.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Children Day and I'm feeling so happY!

2005-10-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmmm, i actually got a happy children day message at around 0100 hrs.. it's so surprising. guess this particular friend is one of a kind who would remember this day. cheeros to you kathy! right brainers rocks big time!

okay, the 2nd time to celebrate. the misunderstanding has been cleared. today's session was kindof interesting. marked by a sweet turn of events linking to the number 3. i saw cheerful judy 3 times.. and i say KC 3 times too! cheerful ppl brightened my day! now you guys out there why i'm alwasy hanging around cheerful ppl who always puts on a big wide smile! happyness is contagiously!!

there was some progress in geo. Sea. this means everything is going on smoothly. just some more fine tuning and it will turn out fine... the only worrying facter is my tupid SSA2203! cos i won't get to c my tutor for 4 freaking weeks... and this kindof suck.. this meant i prob won't bother to consult him. up till now, i still think he is a big old sch, despite his lecture great depression's cool n enlightning. guess his 1st impression still stays rock hard in my mind.. dun you agree my ssa2203 mates?

3rdly, i'm on wireless access at home! watching jacky chan' s movie on TV! Yi Ge Hao Ren!!! yeah. the setback the lag when i'm gaming. otherwise, chatting. doing work is smooth! and of course, i learn more geek stuff on wirelessnetwork!!!

now... will tml be more cheerful? yeah~

i alway love OCT! a beautiful month after a graveful month~ it's like spring after winter.
but then again, i have alwasy love the winter, all the snow. soft and chiLLzz.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

i've never lie.... for as long i've remembered.... who cares anyway? [goodbye september]

2005-09-30T03:18:00.000+08:00

it's 0319 hrs and i thought i could finally move on the sad month of september and carry on with life. and of course, to blog abt the evently thurs marked by archery. the joy and itch for holding the bow, and actually hitting the targets. including, the learning i got from friends. well, i learn something abt cell grp from bella and more interesting stuff from every1.

but that's not the point tonight. besides using this entry to end the month of september to end the yearly mourning in september. it's to clear a misunderstanding with a friend.

maybe, it's communication problem. my bad. but then, here my understanding.
we were supposed to meet some1 and do an interview of her friend's band group for 1 of the projects. but damm, since i have archery from 4-6pm, the time was set at 6.

at 6:15, near SRC and YIH, the phone rang. some conversation was attempted. ran to busstop and board the 1st bus i saw. since i figure tt all bus theres goes to fass..well..some1 told me that before. until i reliease that it was all wrong. i end up on bus C tt goes to kent vale. just where is kents vale?

sms my friend tt bad news.. and board another bus B to fass. got a msg back when i reach the forum. she's going to a committee event. okay. case closed. ran back to YIH pale faced on foot for my 1st staple food meal for 2 days. meet up with the archery mates and ate a bun.

at first i thought she wasn't mad. no idea no clue. but she is. i'm sorry.

but then again, i didn't lie or cook up any excuses for trying to be late. in fact, i have nevereD lie. it's just times when ppl dun believe me. well..there's another case.

2ndly, i end at 6. it's rational. but then again, maybe not.

but then again, at least i know she's mad.

sometimes, guys dun have a clue when gals are offended are bad. at least my friend told me tt.
10x and sorry for the misunstanding. let's hope seeing everyone in schooll won't be akward. cos i'm not gonna explain again.

let this stay in september - mourning end.

- to Ks, the mourning in septemebers i've kept for you have ended this yr.
~cos oct's mine, just as sept will always be delicated to you.
~angels bless u.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

worried!!! mug,stardee,U

2005-09-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

okay... at this period, i really shouldn't be even online....but then.. F! F! F! here i am... i've just done some blog - hopping and read an entry from a friend. she's using DARN! darn darn in her entire blog entry, anyway it's really a funny entry. so i'm guess i will follow suit in the cursing, hence i'm using F! haha!

this really reflects the state of our minds just before our mid sem exams. there's too much to read, and too little time... in other way words, our social life just seem to take too much of out time to mug. and whenever the time is free for our to mug. it's ZZZzz ... then somthing else comes a long and killed out time. So.. any1 who falls into the too little time circle.. screw U.

soci test's on this coming wed. this clown has justed relieased he's not having any clue wat the hell it's all abt. not to mention the load of projects tt r DUE soon. simply stinks. only till when blurblur gal told him tt geo project is due in 3 weeks time did reality dawn n crash on him. TIME!

and then, the whole weekend was wasted on social activites.... going this bday... tt bday... F! life stinks loh! at least, sat was fruitfully spent(a pity it's not on mugging or stardeeing). wasted the 1st half of sat on geo field trip.. learn a bit on fengshui there... got some gd food recommended by blur. went kino and finally got the bk 4 of this tw book! so happy! and some quality research on CNM: Blogging! and then it's a mad rush to west coast to cele my neices bday! yeah! and a race to bugis to catch up with the guys!

finally the mad idiot kt is leaving. friends for 12 years, and i can finally stop seeing tt "gigglo kt" for 4 yrs~ is it ablessing in disguise? hmmmm.. gonna miss him!

we KTV till 4am man... wat the hell.. by the time ls was already half dead. it's a surprise we can all survive so long, living on the 4-5 hr sleep per day. guess it's really gathering for kt tt matters... since every1 rush to meet kt even when we have a bz schelude.. at least tt moron appriehated tt`

and then sunday was wasted on ZZZZZZzzz n min work mugging for soci... hellish!

monday was no better i guess... a free day, and i took 1.5 hr to get to sch for a 45 min project discussion..not productive at all.. lol.. as all 1st 2 meetings are. at least we got eat cray fish hor fun at chinatown.. i wonder how come blur blur ger find all the makan lobang!
hahah~

sianz.. time to mug.. or GAME..

MUG, i hate u!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

de-lusion

2005-09-22T01:47:00.000+08:00

it's 2am~ just reliease my bio-clock severly damage from all the late nights doing work, mugging and of course.. all the time spending online doing non sensible things. just idling, listening to weird weird songs, and just thinking of irrational issues.

oops.. i should labelled it as irrational "troubles" and not use the term "issues". thats becauses troubles refer to personal shit.... and issues refer to shit every1 faces... so.. i have lots of troubles... now.. will any1 care to make this an issue?

pawning noobs online just an't making it any better.. yeah.. dota on wc3,tft. i'm the best newbie killer around. (so sue me)

and then i reliease i was deluding myself: so hey... wake UP! get a life.. be a NERD!
yeah~ man, thats' the way... the NERDY way. just do it~!

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-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

【sad or happy? i am torn in btw】K! 空无一人的城市。。。

2005-09-19T01:44:00.000+08:00

hmm..... *scratches his chin. it's due time i start mugging and doing my projects. haven really start anything all.. besides browsing the web and reading some articles online based on my projects. it's weird. i dun feel worried at all. izzit because of choc intake? hope not. better do more crunches n pushups tml morning.. LOL

anyway, i was rewatching the vampire 3 hk drama on tv until dad switch to chan U and watch some crappy lame TW varity show that focus on the ideas of getting some1 attached. there's a lot of idealogies that went on. it's was funny. we had a gd laugh.

been an evently weekend, marked distinct by rabbit's bday (extremely EARLY) celebration and his personal thoughts that have been weighing my heart. it's gd to find some1 to tok too.. but's that's another story for anther day. just tt my issues seem to make me extremely eager to help rabbit tie his knot down.

it was funny, as i was very eagerly observing rabbit and some1 whom i find an ideal match for him(of course). and as i painstakely coerion rabbit to ask her out. :) well... rabbit.. u better BE straight. and b the 1st of out mini clinque to get associated:P

i couldn't really wonder y i did that? have my long time associaton with the many friends in nus indocnitrated me to this lvl of bimboness? am i changing? but then, i'm straight:P tt's definated. hehe! i'm still as cheeky as ever~ maybe worsE!

but then, on another hand, i just that there are major drastic changes in the lives of my ancient friends and the new friends i have made. the thing is, most of them are shitty or bad to them. i just can't help but then..... is being in varsity that big of a deal that it causse a trumoil?

hmm... i'm tired. let's just wait n c...

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

【乱乱乱 K 。。。烦烦烦 K 。。。】K! 空无一人的城市。。。

2005-09-17T02:46:00.000+08:00

正在打中文。总有一个预感 blogger 会如我愿的呈现这美丽的文字。真是他妈的烦、乱。

人在心烦的时候在做什么事情多不悦、不爽。小小的事情都可以让我气冲冲！

我必须回头！回头是岸！

不提也罢。好是照友人说的做好了。

唠叨过了。我去睡了。明天又是一天。

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

irony

2005-09-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

here's something funny... i was trying to cheer a friend up who's facing some problems that's i not even aware off... and in turn.. she was hearing me out.. consoling me.

i am so doom. at least i felt a whole lot better when i.ve got a trustly worthy friend to confined it.
10x U!!! u know who u r~

so let's all cheer up K?

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

The NEXT big thing: choc land!!!!!

2005-09-16T01:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm... it's been eons since i've got motivated to blog here. there's just loads of things to do. of course there's a lot really interesting events going in my world. so much it seem not real. but none of them really sparkle me so much i got determine to blog. cos it's thursday today. my favourite day in these semester in nus.

to start it off, thurs a free day. i can simply pig all day until it's sometime where the noon suns shine on me. in addition, it's archery day. and good company counts a lot. even when i got a shitty mood. i never fail to smile when i heard abt the hilarous conversations going on during archery and the actions. even the archery people make me feel gd. not to mention the overdose of chocolates:P *smiles n drools on choc* and to think the incident on how i nearly lost my wallet didn't even make me wanna blog! archery days rocks.

things been going on smoothly so far. that is, if ya dun include the tutorials, shitty PMS days i have and the upcoming datelines, and of course, the OVERWHELMING bdates going on. not to forgot to alvin who keeps insisting i should go run instead of doing other sports...

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good company: gonna know a new grp friends via my ssa2203 tutorial. 3 guys n 3 gals from diff backgrd, diff fac. mix them together, and u've got everything u need to have fun. there 1. everbz guy,E 2. silent crapshit "jayzhou, W 3 n 4. the gluey duo of craps, A & J 5. 1.73m tkd gal who's really cooL.(roCKS), Jy 6. boring me, R. See? we have got a mixture of talents!! "ewajJyR" never really thought we could bond so well in the class. esp when our tutor really suck to core. he's boring. old school. and a really boring old school guy. haha!
session to ntu was bonding... including the tkd-watching session. and then, all of a sudden, "BONDING" seem to my trademark in e grp. not to mention a new nickname. and then my list of nickname increases: 1. rpg 2.devilcatz 3. bin. 4. lobby. 5. bobby(bobbie) 6. moon 7. monkey 8. catz 9. Ed-bie. 10. Rob-mund. sighs....

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good company: of coure, a trip to ASIA Civillisation museum turn out to be rewarding too! me n faith discover the special room in gallery 4a and were bewildered by the traditional and ancient java gamelan (tt's java musical intrusments). we saw our european baby talker prof there teaching it. it's was so nice. and we just laze there n listen as we wait for siyu-ger, iris, and alex. and trought the trip, me n faith happen to meet adeline and her friend (was it rebecca? can't rememeber.. whocares!) they were there at the first floor for centuries!!! til we reliease they didn't knwo there were other galleries!!!! lol! her friend chat a bit with me abt the stuff in museum. but well.. i dun think i know here anyway.. was funny when she approach me.. lol.. but then... haha. can't be bothered.

went to sg's durian with iris. siyu-ger. alex. the esplanade sure's a grand place to watch at night. esp the night scene. gorgerous! and as i stared deep into the view, i got lose in thoughts and though of shitty silly things... it's was great sharing time n the view with my friends!

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honeset ppl i know: and of course there's the story abt me on how i ALMOST LOST my wallet! drop it during soci class... and until i reliease it.. it's was already ssa2203 class.. as a result. i was damm piss and put on an irrating mask of annoyance for everything... constanting showing my shitty face. not that i was cursing, i was just look annoyed.. until even judy mentioned she got slightly frightned to talk to me. guess i am scarY. (moral of the story: dun piss me :) )
it was a god's blessing that liting n quenquen found it. i was so happy i thought i was on estasy and starting rattling too them. :P. and i proceed to hustle weiming, judy to accom me to get my wallet.. so happy i treat liting n quen for lunch. :P such nice ppl! [moral of story: it's a blessing to know great ppl]

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SHIT OF THE WEEK: now.. to settle the issue abt me not liking the "RUN" or "RUNNING". because, god damm it. I can't run for freaking nuts... i am LAME. every freaking step hurts.. tt includes walking:
--> 10x to SAF . screw U.
---> and of course my favoutite sports in sch days wushu..sighs....pia too hard and hurt e right knee nerve.

so to the 1 hu insists i should run then take other sports and all ur crap logic. BUZZ off and BACK OFF! :) JERKball. anything but running!!
okay.. time for some chocs to make me happy. happy happy happy

p-s: ppl alwasy remember the 1st n last pt. so.. remeber i hate running:P n choc is the IN thing noW! of course, that includes gd company n archery.!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

fall of england

2005-09-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

what the? england LOST vs N.Ireland? Oh my god..!

the golden age of england as a soccer power as gone.. together with france..italy..
this is crap. this is boring. it's time to just sleep!

and dream of pawning eriksson in my dreams with all my friends and me aiming his balding head. for once.. stop thinking abt ur galfriends erikssoon. n mak sensible choices...

stick to ur 4-4-2 formation..stop dumping ppl in the wrong places....

buck up.. or shit OUT!!

*the archery recreational wing focus n aims at eriksson's head!

BULLEYE!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

being YELLOW!!!!!!

2005-09-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

yeah! right! i declared myself a yellow freak! i have yellow nike shoes which are beyond repair, which i have yet to convince myself to throw.. i have yellow underwear? (u wanna look?) i have bleach color shorts pants (it's close to yellor color loh) .. i have yellow t-shirt!. i have yellor specs!!!

i am after all. yellow yellow dirty fellow!

okay... end of blog entry!

a theory discuss with a friend... heaven and earth.. which's hotter? Y? hahah!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

�?� ???. "Qi" Zhi Duan Pian

2005-09-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

Music: David Tan - Sha Tan

Inspirations? noT? nothings matters that much these days. Have you ever wonder that sometimes god simply enjoys playing jokes on us? maybe it's just pure humor for him share play an occasion thingy on his creations. maybe there's 2 sides to everything after all. Just when we feel shitty to the max, he showers us with his attentions.

The whole of today was a chaos right in the begining. Late for lecture.. and all the attention was shower on me... at least it was funny. Everything start turning crap with SSA2203. Random thoughts start flowing into my mind when i saw some1 in the lecture that triggered a thought hidden in my mind. Then chaos start.

The chaos rambled on. Went to central lib to mug with Ger. Funny how things work now. Arts is an interesting place since there's alwasy people you will see in sch no matter what time, wat place that you will know. The hands already start aching from waving "Hi". i wonder. just how many people mean it? hmm.. worth a thought. bumb into a sec sch friend. and that's all the pain set in. and all the awlful memories flown in ago. cos everytime i see her.. i linked her to some1 i know. sighs...

at least mugging with ger was fun. talked abit sbt the SuperStar show on Chan U. We left the lib other commitments later on. Saw kathy.bella. and furtheron sarah. Told U arts is damm small~ well. at least i meet nice people :P cheers.

rest of the day was history as i ZZzZzzZzz on the bus home.

got a phone call from a caring friend about another friend :P sweet. at least there's some1 else in the world that know the world care too~

oh ya.. i think archery rocks.. the shooting a totally new thing for me. it's still fresh and new for me although every1's been there for some time. not to mention all the things we crap about during the wait. guess it's the fun and the compancy that really counts and makes everything so comfortable. PPL! U ROCK!!!!!

time to game n dream of lovely cats! meowWW!!
devilcatz on the move!

p-s btw, devilcatz my 1st nickname! n i copy right it!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

down

2005-08-28T06:35:00.000+08:00

Music: Elfen Lied OST - Lillium

Here I am blogging using ms word with the blogger add on. It�s weird how technology advancement has aid us. Linking us everywhere, everytime, everwhen. Never that crap.

Am feeling a bit �the� now. I am still confused about something in life. Just why is Murphy�s law always taking place? Whenever I make an effort to make something happen, it never does so. Yet when I am just bored and can�t be bother to do anything, a miracle just happens to me. Why?

It�s a pity how I can�t give an example to illustrate the situation. But, it�s will just reveal too much of me. I still do need my clothes on people.

If anyone knows the song I am hearing now, Lillium. That�s how I feel at this current time. Lost.

Sweet! Sins! All in a week!

2005-08-28T05:02:00.000+08:00

wow! it's 0530 hrs n i can't sleep at all... good morning!!!

anyway.. lots of things kindof happen this week. it's been a really memorable week. full of surprises... full of interesting events happening.. which of course.. left me more broke and exhausted then ever...

what's marked as the more memorbale event will be archery.. am i a archery freak or wat? so for the time being, i'm in archery recreational week with mel.kat.bella. the 4 ranger/archers from fasss! we all got chose thurs for archery! and jinxun also coming next week! archery training is either on tues. wed or thurs. 4-6pm every week. we just come 1 of the day. every1 was so sweet to chose thurs. cos for the majority of us. we have our free days on thurs..

actually, i wasn't planning on taking up archery even it was so so FUN since it really had a shitty training date.. since on tues n wed.. i end at 1800 hrs... and thurs is free day? but well, as mel says, i get convinced by ppl easily.. well, that's because kat n bella r going even when they have their own day on thurs.. so if they can go.. y can't i? haha! i sure have fun friends:P

so now ppl... join me n mug on thurs okay? hehe! now we can all psycho each other to mug b4 arachey.. there's jinxun n mel.

anyway.. it was the usual phenomen in archery... the gal population overwhelm the guys. we saw and meet jerry (it's spell like this?) there. she's 1 of the seniors that we know of. just that we know her. she dunno us..she hates to be label as ivan's gf. she's the think of person who knows herself. i chat with her a bit when she was teaching me on some archery stuff and i think she is cool! and as from arts camp, i still think she look familar.... hmm..

shoot some arrows.. it was fun..(i am repeating.cos it's 0500 man.pardon me). it was hard trying to hold the bow in angle where my arm joint sticks out. in addition, my gripping was too tight. i just feel that too much wushu in the past has stuff of gave me a killer grip.

and then, i start my bad habit of observing people again. i starting ogleing on how ppl are holding the bow. the shooting techiques and the style. every 1 was so cool! esp bella n kat.~ bella's so graceful! kat was like so much COOL! the chrisma in them. somehow, they both remind of legolas in LOTR... not to forget mel who always keeps the smile when she's shooting.

oh ya..not to mention the hungry friends i have... lol.. i shall not give names... u guess!

event 2: brian's leaving on mon 0800.. and thus treat us to marvellous ala carte buffect.... it sure cost him a bomb! hehe! WE, the 5 of us LOVE U BRIAN the BRAIN!!!! anyway, dinner then was at raffles place. right after archery! i was famished! and needless to say.. all the sins i have take in sure makes me gain some weight (i hope not..sobssobs) SinsZ.....

and we KTV again... diaoZ/pengZ

but then..after thurs.. fri SUCK big time. it totally stinks... a boring crappy shitting 1@#&)$! blast day. cos of some lame freaking rule in a tourny which was announced when we all started like 5mins into the game... we lose.. for sure.. since the other team gain a lot by the rule

i was like wat the HELL? we chose our heros for the DOTA competition.. we chose our skill pts.. we bought out game items in the game. and then he say.. this will be a time match. GOD DAMM IT. MOTHER FUCKING GAY FREAK ASS> SONOFABITCH. wat can i say? the gaming club committer SCREW ASS! u have a stuck up registraion committee.. and acting noble makes u go LOWER then my feet!

anyway it was like this.. the other team has chosen tower rackers when our team has power house heros.. the rule benefit them cos they can clear towers faster.. and of course can earn a lot of pts in the early half.. and..the time limit was 30 mins.. after the new rule took effect. it was 25 mins left... god... and the committe make us stop at 30min mark. and took pts.. hell... of course by score they win.. damm it..

when i told my bnet clan abt it.. every1 was cursing.. haha.. well.. SCREW U NUS GAMING CLUB>! hhaahh!

at least lunch with guys was fruitful.. n i bumb into some nice ppl who make me sin by letting eat her chicken culture.. sweet but sinly..... rabbit was giving the stare then..hahah

chess club was a flob.. i just went n played bad sportmanship by sucideing all e way. crap. cos chi chess section was in a disaster. damm. waste time.. waste space for my entry in a blog on chess..
1@%#!*(@$

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Key to Twlight! PMS!

2005-08-21T02:51:00.000+08:00

it's another late nighter entry. it's kind of the norm for me these days ... really, silence only exists when the whole world is sleeping.. netizenz roaming the net without speech.

i think dual personalities exist in every1. the cheerful side. the quiet side. but hey.. i think i have 3? the noisy, witty? side. the quiet isolating side. the PMS side.

y pms? lol. cos when gals have pms.. they have serious mood swings. one min cheerful, full of life. one min changing into some1 barely recongizeable, pissed off with whole world look. haha... so i deduced i have this pms side ...

guess today was pms day. went out in the afternoon to pass something for a friend to zap. she's an interesting person. lol. abit blur like wanting. but just as nice. haha. another person who mix up the "odd" "even" issue for tutorial, to another extend. well.. she was so kanjiong abt her mon's tutorial i have to lend her zap my readings for the chi biz module since her com refuse to let her log into ivle. funny thing is.. she mix up the odd even thing and upon being "enlightened" by me, it turn out that her tutorial starts NEXT mon.. my poor friend came out for nothing.

walked pass parco. there was event being held. some perfume coy was having some competition. well, both of us didn't have e faintest idea wat was the price. buTz... it was some contest btw which couple could kiss the longest.... when we 1st walked pass.. the record was 1.5 hrs... when we walked past again at 6 +++ hours.. the record was 3.5 hrs.. Oh My... i just like this feeling that it's a perfume price... if the gal really wans it.. the guy should just buy n give it to her.. y bother having this long torment of kissing? hmm.... maybe it's just PMS me complaining.

went for og outing. was interesting! xuzhi, aka suzie came. rocks. for once in my whole arts life in nus. the outing was marked with a more than balance sex ratio. FinALLY!

Alas, the mission to watch "Dim Sum Dollies" was aborted, since the tixs were sold out. kindof sad when i heard tt from liwen. dramas r interesting!

so on, no plans. until every1 decided to chill out at TCC. funny.. i know it as mph coffee house. hmm..when did it change to TCC. haha. there was a lot of ball throwing on wat we should do b4 we decide on plan TCC. movie. shop. walk n hang around. i hate to chose.. tt's prob libra voicing out in me. i already make too many decisions these few days. hate it. in addition.. it was obvious there any decision i make will deappoint another grp. so might was well... throw the ball away. haiz....

TCC was interesting. hearing the various ideas shared. the events. some gossip in our og. toks abt wy's parting farewelll on yacht( now.. tt's the boring part). it's going to be a all gal thing with 1 guy thing. well.. u know whose the only guy dun U? haha. --> now... do some critical and judge urself. i rest my case. maybe's tt his only flaw. lol

and then it's endless gaming at home... training is boRing...

something interesting... a friend mention i look like a monkey. another say i look like i'm :made in chi high: now's tt's worth a thought. i still like cchs better!

some1 was saying i need to a gf. lol... let's be relaz n c...

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

being bluR - the next 'in' thing

2005-08-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

after the CORS outbreak in school, with all the balloting going on. All cursing and swearing about tearing down the CORS admin team, killing nus has come to a halt today.

school was cool today.. a lot of memorable events took place today....

the 1st 1 was simply a classic! hence, i delicated this paragraph to wan ting!!! the ultimate queen of blurness! i think tt's her cute X factor!!! apparently, my dear friend bid for an even week slot for tutorial and lab session when every1 agreee to get odd week for both sessions.

it was upon when prog yeung was taking a survey on the no of students when it dawn upon our dear friend that she was the only blur queen that took even week. haha!

the issue was only offical resolved when she escorted her to the geo department and got the slot changes. its sure was a blessing.. because there was only 14 ppl in our tutorial slots... and there were ppl who even wanted to appeal out of our time slot. lol.. at least. we can now grab a bigger share of prof yeung!! YUMMY!

the 2nd 1: it was touching.. well.. at least to me! we had a grp lunch after tt inspiring ssa2203 lect. the seats my other friends reserved for us was not enough when we had unexpected guests. so, being the only guy.. i op out of my seat.. sad right? i thought i will prob be bored for tt session.. ppl start offering to sit with me.. cos i was alone n bored... i was SOSO touched!
thanks to those who offer!

I LOVE U GUYS! well.. GALS!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

shop? it's has to be being with the right company

2005-08-13T16:15:00.000+08:00

I usually do blogging when i have something very interesting to share about.. or something i really to whine abt. [read the lines.. daily bloggers who blogs like this: i woke at 7am. brush my teeth. ate breakfast. went to school/work by bus no XXX are boring]

MUSIC: Princess Mononoke - Legend Of Ashitaka Theme

bandmusic rock! reminds me of KS. hiaZ...

been an exciting 2 days spend fruitfully[u decide]. it end up making me drain that i didn't really manage to blog abt it.. and welll.. i've pretty much 4got most of it.. expect that it was fun.

shopping with my friends was interesting. hmm.. i mention shopping? YES. it's has a long story attached to it. but we did went shopping. heard a great deal on shopping as an investment from 1 very interesting friend. she has like 50 bags? and got her 51th bag the day we went. bagaholic? hmmm. and there's even a catch on how to get the bags.. which bag last longer, which type of bag holds more weight.. etc. learn a lot from them.. but then.. if only guys's bags r hell lot cheaper..

went archery yesterday. it's was an experience, marked by some internal bleeding.. yeah.. the bow string brushed against my arm... and it's now forming a bruise.. anyway.. it's a totally cool thing. fun.. rocks.. fabulous! it's totally on a different scale as compared to m16 o sar21 shooting in e army.. did i mention i was marksman in both events? yeah..but i was quite a :bobo: shooter in archery. kathy was cool.. bull eye's gal.. bella had the great archer look in her.. chris was.. well.. boring.. [hmm..who looks at guys shooting? haah] faith look like she was fetching more then shooting.. AHhhh i have such cool friends.

it's a pity some of my other friends miss the archery thingy. every1 was sick. hiaz..

hmmm... no wonder a friend i just got to know better was saying i describle in interesting ways. *says hi to si yu!

another friend had to do tutiion even when she was sick... sighs...

went rovers after tt after a sms reminder from a friend. rovers was cooll.. they have so many out of sg events that mainly involve trekking. my friend signed up... she's running commitee... well.. maybe..

sad thing abt it was tt i prob will not join rovers..the trekking will kill my legs.. small thanks to a lame organistaion call SAF!

meet with 2 lamers on e way back home.. 1 was some guy who thinks he's most yandao.. i think he's the R_U_D_E_N_E_S_S ass around. he's also gay or something... tt moron was banging every1 in the train. happily leaning on my hand when there was obviously plenty of room around.. and gives e the smile. creeps...

another worse off... he was fighting for seats with an old lady.. wtf?

so finally .. is it archery tt has bad training dates? or will it be chi chess.. pengZ.. or even cca-less?
haha.. time to go out loh!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

new ideas.. new ppl.. old ppl... interesting ppl..

2005-08-11T01:21:00.000+08:00

well.. i am tired.. but i thought i should share this thingy.

I've got 5 letters for you. It starts with a B, ends with a H and the middle starts with a T. I See(C) B-I-T-C-H

(B)e A Star D Bastard

learn the latter from faith.. invent it when i have dinner with faith.

actually, i feel like a blogging a lot today.. since 1st day of offical mugging sch for me was kindof exciting! marked by being remembered by many friends who caught me in sch. we exchange nos again! so happy! it's such a blessing to be remembered! (now i sound like i am dead or something).

the lectures were interestin.. esp the 1str lect by Dr Millie.. and of couse the "interesting" n interesting lectures in SEA.

crashed e lit. the topic was so cool. wat was being mention totally rocks.. but there's a catch.. the lecturer speaks MONO-TONE. YUCKS! a gd sub is ruin by a knowlegde yet mono tone lecturer.. such ppl just have this x factor tt stops me from focusing..

saw some1 i really to look at in soci. nice. nice. sad. sad. sad. [long story]

went back.. gossip on msn. chat a bit with new friends.. i am beginning to love my og. hehe.. 10x to some1 who listen. 10x! oh ya.. u r beautiful Ks?

ZZZzzzzzz... user regrets he can't blog more cos he has to wake in 4 htrs time to sch..haha

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

and then, it's NDP ... ... again ... ...

2005-08-09T10:55:00.000+08:00

yeah, it's NDP again. Happy 40th birthday Singapore! I Love You.

however, beneath the surface of being rara and merry abt NDP, i am still bored by NDP. Ever wonder y ladies are so excited to go for NDP? I rememeber the time when I gave tickets to my ladies friends... they were like So so happy. The guys simply do not want the tixs. Y? cos NDP's boring... it's the same thingy all the while.

being part of the NDP crew in NS allowed me to learn many behind the scenes nonsenses. We get to know the real faces besides the mediacorp artist. The ones who are always late, the one who think they are big shots when they are actually some small fries. Oh this particular SG artist singer who's really a snob behind the cameras, and she actuallys protray an innocent face on world wide tv.. simply gross!

the only thingy cool abt NDP = fireworks! i have seen countless NDP fireworks when we were doing rehearsals. standing at diff degrees near the fireworks station. sure pleasure when there was once i was in restricted boundaries when they actually shoot the fireworks! wow! my og friends are meeting up to watch ndp fireworks later someplace later in orchard. i wonder if i should join the crowd. hmmmmm.. i wonder.

had some 1-1 talks with my og mates online last night despite the messy mass chat window we had. learn some interesting stuff and their views. i so happy i'm in such a happening og. P_R_O_U_D! 10x heavens i was nv involved in the rags or MIA. at least now i spot potential tutorial mates. lectures mates.. possibly some1 i can trust in doing the projects in sch.

rabbit's screaming already. too much ivle is bad for health..lol.. stop ivleing.. and get antz to dota! hehe!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

the degrading society.. guys are becoming frags..

2005-08-04T04:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i just think the guys i know back from cchsm still's the coolest bunch of friends i have. although we are like a all guy groupie thingy, it's quite fun to hang around with them. okay, it's a well know fact that my guys tend to be more inclined towards the nerdy side. but hey, at least we always do things together. we've been though some shitty times. we don't just dump some people behind while seeking "excellant" cover somewhere else.

hia.. guys these days. they're degrading. just hours ago, some dudes happily went upstairs to have a cosy ZZzzZz in some couch while leaving the girls to fend for themselves sleeping on the hard floor. HOW NICE. the first thought that came into my mind was - SCREW YOU!

wat's the point of joining as counsillors when you are doing min or zero effort to provide some care to the people around you. the girls were watching russell peters show.. when 1 phrase caught my attention: DO THE RIGHT THING. BE A MAN

ya.. so.. pls do the right thing, and be a man. be in the same boat. no wonder i am forever claiming to be part of the sisterhood with my female friends in oweek. guys disgust me at times. the things they do.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

these few days.. weird how i feel.. weird wat i encounter..

2005-07-31T21:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i survived the many sleepess nights for o-week! that's a great accomplisment!
on the eve of 28 july. i sleep early at 0130 am.

and then.. at appromiately 0230.. the great xue pig called me n talk abt her love story. hia.. gals..
it's last till around 4++ am. wow! catch up a bit here and there. hear abt how she feel abt all the guys in the world. how evil we all are.. it's surprising that she remembers i'm a guy too!

finally slept at around 0500.. and woke up in less then 1hour to pack my stuff n prepare the long long trip to nus! haha! 1 hr of sleep clocked.! played some games in og ice breaking.. lol` saw some cool ppl there. pretty gals. idiotic carin got me to do the poledance foreit again.. oh my god!
it's was hell again. haha. mass dance was fun. lead by ivan, we did the dance we learn from precamp. fun fun fun.

left the nite tired n ZZz and went online to do bidding for CORS module.! spent the nite with mel.jingfen. online planning it. sharing some of our ideas. sms with sarah on some stuff. cOooOoooLz. did some quiet thinking after tt.. mainly on cors and some other crazy stuff and Zzz for like 3 hrs..

marvellous.. 4 hrs of sleep for 2 days.

made me slightly crankly on friday. either i was really crazy.. or i was really quiet..lol forgoet wat happen on friday morning.. it was overnight stay at nus again..
so naturually, we had fright nite! really, some guys are useless.. i could hear guys screaming when i walk pass.. some moron guys scream during the airing of "the shutter" horror movie b4 the night venture. the 2nd movie was crap. went out with 1 freshie. christ.danielle n started talking abit here n there. every1 gathered at eng bridge after the night fright venture thingy. chat n crapped. and i finally learn the fazee wazee game! 10x god jingfen took pity and taught me that. oh. must also 10x danielle n may for teaching me how many sheeps jumpo over the walk game!

after the games, every1 walked back to our destinated sleeping areas. some1 approched me and say hi. i saw her b4 i think. she had a really familiar face. then i rememeber she was some1 from the treasure hunt grp. heard her name for then 1st time. it's a really nice name: vanessa. chat a bit since we were all tired. there's 1 funny thing. how did she know my name? haha. but i nv taught of it then until much later. exchange phone nos. n for some reason she ask me to call her or sms in e morning to walk her up. and so i say okay. anyway. she was kindof pretty too.

after fright nite. jingfen and me escort may to aaron's place to get may's stuff. it was funny. cos jingfen completely went Zzzzzzz when she hit aarons pillow... may had to pull her face to wake her up. lol. heard the 5 star treatment on the way from may on the way to aaron's place. lol. apparently, aaron was 5 star maid there faith n may crashed there!

went back to as6. found ramen ppl all talking... heard the other faith telling us lame jokes. every1 talk a bit. hear rayner tok abt his tank story.. ivan joined us. we crap n crap till dawn..lol
damm.. ZERO sleep..

so it was 5 hrs sleep for 3 days... omg.. the weird thing is.. christ say i dun have any eyebags.. so COOL! set my alarm at 0630 to wake vanessa and sarah(my dragon trail parnter) up. called vanessa.. no ans (i learn later that her phone got damage). decide i shall let sarah zz more.. since she went over her friends place for bday party. zero sleep too i think.

Zzzzz a little after that. woke up to find vanessa beside me. all Zzz. haha~ it's a tiring nite for every1. gather at 0715 and started hearing xinyan gave us the briefing for the day. feeling sarah will possible not have the chance to eat breakfsat.. grab a bread for her. spend the time later squezing into rayners;s van as he smuggles us 2 batches to sentosa~ ahaha. heard yiya senpai telling us abt mugging tips.

meet up with the rest of them. proceed to start disbatching ourself for the games. and damm.. it rain when we were reaching the end station... rain again...

last time we have precamp.. sarah and me were caught up in the rain.. this time.. it's the same. last time.. i shelter her to out fortess shelter hideout.. now.. we shelted others.. lol..
it sure bring back lovely memories. lol.

rayner came and fetch the ppl trap in the rain in his van. every1 regrp back at the ferry terminal. had lunch,, did some interaction. while i could help feeling funny abt god and rain. :)

played beach games. saw sarah again in dog bone game. every seem so lively give the big smile; haha~. then there was the water games with og sashimi. meet sarah again in the polo game.. it was so damm embarassing.. cos i flob there. i got the task of carrying this other gal on my shoulders in the water when the pole game stared.. it was terrible. i drop the gal twice. my bad.
the sea just have this terrible effect of deminishing me.. i just hate having hydrophobia... it would not have been this bad if i was carrying another dashing gal and having sarah seeing me flob.. unbearabLE...

saw vanessa later at the game where she was station ic. kawaii`

games end and every1 had mass dance n dinner later then. we were seated in thei cool area! say a lovely sunset!

went back. lol. tired n wet from the game...thinking abt all the new ppl i have meet. and i meet vansessa again.. lol! and i hate a terrible zzz look then. sighs!!! wat a way for me to greet a friend when she's still very much alive!

oh ya.. i got geo. computer new media n sociology as my modules!! so cool and so happy now! cheers! maybe ever1 i know share wat ever i take.. hah!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

even for 1 hours, i chose to be with u ... [xiaoyuer to xiaoxiannu]

2005-07-27T03:01:00.000+08:00

i really obsess with the show! wow!!!! nbm tt. pardon my crankness!

wow! i've just gotten my cool specs. it's silver rim with yellow side. rocks. now.. tt's just reminds me of pin guan. haha!

anyway, i miss the nus opening talk.. cos i was simply too Zzzz n tired to wake. ahZzz... at least i learn that i didn't miss much from my friends. it's all talk abt varsity requirements to grad. and the afternoon subjects were all e same as b4. no much sense to hear them again.

just discover that FOE guys dun have a part 2 session to their talks.. it all ended today for them. we, from e fass have a part 2 session. lol! maybe if i can wae up tml, i'll go.

then maybe we will all go do some house identify got rojak house. i was so happy when when i learn from anther friend that other house are also doing e same thing. althought at slightly later timings! it's just so so SO COOL! now we know that we're not e only house stayover in sch!

now... here i come tomorrow... maybe i will stayover.. haahahh! cheers

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

i forgot

2005-07-26T02:35:00.000+08:00

wang4 le4. zhen de wang le

suddenly relisead i forgot something. i forgot. sighs..

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

wat a day!

2005-07-26T01:22:00.000+08:00

woke up and went immediately back to zzz land. it's odd. cos whenever i have important events to go. ppl will ring me up. haha! this time, it's to ask for slipper size. hmm.. guess my house identify will be slippers... how uncool for guys to wear red or pink slippers.. imagine me and pink going to sentosa. how terrible odd! ODD!

i'm forever starting the day with some flob. this time.. i caught the wrong bus and found myself ending at PGP. and i happen to see wenhui there, off to rag! i consider myself lucky to meet her there by chance. if not for her, i'll prob be lost! haha!

matix fair was ZzzzzzzzZ. we had to q up to enter the hall. meet up with several og mates by chance. saw wj there. saw saif there, and got his contact. it's a small world after all. even saw bearnie. lol.

got my matrix card. it's look weird. well.. since i got a sleepy look.. with my hair all pointing upwards... lol! but the others dun fare so well in their pics on the matrix card. some have enlongated face.. some seems to have their face bash up in the pic. it was hilarous! saw some nric pics from my friends. every1 look quite recongizeable from e pic. i look diff. haha! maybe it's tme t change it b4 i turn 30. 30 still like 10 years away.

lots of stuff to take in matrix fair.. wrong day to hurt my wrist. and the day end up having me carrying everything on the left side of my body! got the lappy that i think was quite allright.

it was acer in the end..not the 12.1 inch.cos it suck in graphic.. not fuji, cos of their lousy wireless connection issues. not ibm. so it's acer with graphics card upgrade for me. 2.3k.

i was quite excited when i saw the leaflets on the lappies. cos every com has their stats improve! yeah.. focus on apple stuff.. was so CooL. thought immediately of sarah who wans to own an ibook! sms her. sms back. interesting gal.

interesting. i stress.

decided 2 leave e place. untili i was halt by the staff at the fair. apparently, the cca booths r upstairs. hustle into the crowd. watch a lame movie flick. well.. it's has no orginally.. lol

bought matrix fair bag. went in n got arts bag for free later. 2 heavy duty bags..not to mention the smallerbag at lvl 1.. . it's was like a tug of war inside. every1 was like : do u wan to join XYS? ABC? QOW?. didn't really bother with it..

wushu. chi drama. chi cult club. chess. rovers. harmonia interst more.. i sign up. the issue is.. all the damm cca falls on FRIDAY!! i really wan wushu....chess... rovers...even drama!!! sighs..

guess i'll c wat i'll go . depending on my timetable once bidding starts!

got home.. smsing. haha!

1st time i got home. it's chi drama time...! was watching a particular sad sad epsiode.
end up weeping for the entire 45 min. seriously, guys are made of water too!
it's hard to desrible wat happen in the show. XiaoYuEr's love, MuRongXian aka XiaoXianNu die in an unfashionally way. but it lead me to think a lot.. alot of memories came flowing in. weep again. finally, i nv even shed a tear when some1 else left.

have i soften? maybe i think too much. has being in a company of gals soften me? maybe i should be alone for a while. alternatively, i shall go alone tml for the vice-deans's talk.

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

Yu n Xian

2005-07-25T02:07:00.000+08:00

went rag house today. a chain of events. all e hammer was fun fun fun!.

weird aren't I? meet christine sis. cool name. sarahfina. (i think tt;s how it is being spell?)

am still watching Jiang Xiao Yu yu Hua Wu Que. love the show. esp by XiaoYuEr and XiaoXianNu (Mu Rong Xian). so nice! unable to disscrible how i feel!

remind me of a lot of things!
xian xians!!!!!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

a bomb! yellow bomb! rainrainrain

2005-07-24T03:38:00.000+08:00

wow! i fix my specs.. n aquire a new pair..

but damm it.. it costs like 260 bucks.. 110 for cool yellow silver specs.. 150 got lens.. god..

early wake up alarm woke me up like 7am in e morning... and i went back to ZZzz.. it wasn't until around 9am , tt an wake up sms from a friend prompt me to jump out bed. and head down to posb bank as promised to settle e giro form for nus! wow! i appreihiate tt friend!

national lib's cool! shall not elaborated. since i prob try to pesuade my nus friends to go oagain. it's like sosos cool! hahhha!

went wc bday at downtown east. makan. game chi chess.. lost. so long since i play~ quite fun to do tt! chat. crap. waited for latecomers like dearest ls n kt. they're 4ever late.. damm it.

tired... but i rememeber there's a cute waitress outside e booth of downtown east. haha!

i can't wait for sch to start.. get my tm3000 lappy. start oweek. c my friends.. i hope it rains. hot

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-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

funan better then sim lim?

2005-07-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

ehdo? is funan better then sim lim? hmm..maybe. went some notebook scouting while we were all waiting for movies in e afternoon. best denki has some decent 1s. as usaual. fujistu's a BOMB! saw the 12.1 inch acer com. cool!

determinted to get either tt or fujistsu notebook at reduce rates in sch.

saw ibook. was remind of a new friend i made who's idea is to get a ibook. ibook's kindof cool! and best denki offering mas os x 10.5 as a plaform.. but izzit mac tiger at os 10.4? hmmm.. now i wonder.. took the shoots of ibook.. cooLZz... take a snap of the stats n price..
pricey...

some1 mention tt funan another place to go.. well.. many many say so? maybe i go there after rag tml? hmmm...

a penny for ur thoughts any1?

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

drips.. drips.. drips... water oozing out from me!

2005-07-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

wow! it's another disaster in he morning! really, the alarm function of samsung stinks big time. after setting it to ring again at 0945 after i got up at 0930. it fail to ring.. but chose to ring at 2145. what the hell?

so guess wat? i was almost late again. well.. almost..! as usual, antz deary early as usual. me following up a close second. des next. wc then.. n ususl kings of sheer lateness, ls n ys!

swimming was fun! being ages since i did laps.. wait a min? i nv did lags b4. strangely, a couple of encouragements from des make me overcome yrs of hydrophoebia n starting moving(crawling )s lowly to the other end of the safra pool..!!! wow! cheers mAN! i love des the man!

and damm.. i forgotmy towel again.. since i long forgot safra stop the policy of issuing towels since last april.. my bad my bad! had to dress up wet again.. funny.. how come i keep getting wet after joining arts camp? lol

watched movie fan4! it's like so THE. if i'm a fan of the show.. i wil prob curse n swear as i did when i watch harry potter movie 3. bt as a nomral viewer. i think's it's kindof cool! average plot with leaky holes. yet quite nice at pts! i think being human torch is cool! but iceman's cooler!

shop for pens for sch..lol!

gtg liao..meeting og mates for rag tml... taz peeps!

-The world is not beautiful. Therefore, it is. -

____ moonlight: the royal archives ...... ____

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QuiZ

e world is quiet

simple minded: 只因为你、我情不自禁想呵护着你

LIARS SUCK@!

polite = piss n upset n vexed

hmmm...fishy bonus? roaR?! - ponders...

monday was good... let's hope it lasts

downgrading

colors center

hot? cold? y not lukewarm or hot? pls?

riddles n more riddles... KIDs...

jealousy... wat's wrong with me! 酸溜溜

keys... everywhere... memories unlocked...

test test

R

弹弹琴。。。

withdrawal

there's actually a blog competition in SG?

hmpF? sianZ

simply just "Confusing" New Year? wavered!

being logical... a right brainer doing left brain work

his royal cheekiness... on a walk

i'm the worst...

bad luck over. welcome lady lucky!

[S].[H]eb.[E] >>> all bad things! ;>

the cave i must have to stay sane...

this and that. hmpF!

ya right... happy new yr... my foot!? ice-age

unspoken... living a false fool's life

the adventures of meowy fin~

it;'s boxing day... and it's one fucking screw up day.... KNN

and so christmas came... merry x'mas~

crazy sports day for 4it... / so xmas is not abt red fat man afterall...

wa..... i need some oiling on the joinTS!

有还是没有。。。

it's heaven n hell, not earth in btw .... =X :X :( =( =< :(

K~ fever

look beneath it... n b true!

~chicken voice~ | xmas changeover?

so what's ya talking? so what?

courtship games... every1's playing it in the holidays.. but not me!!! Y!!!!

The One Who Should Not Be Named

a movie? a life? i chose the latter

mood: angry n pissed at some, yet touched by some

hell... my new home...

happiness? whose that? she doesn't knows me

Congrats... you have an enemy... how wise of u

這就是我 - Flaws...

totally lost it ... say hello to 3 n byebye to 4 ...

frozen...i need to fix it ! ! ! sense of uselessness...

stink really spreads ... ... ... ... ...

fatality~ bring it on!

Trick or Treat!!! You're have just been blocked!

Guys Awaiting Your Sympathy and Little Kids Symdrome

Quiz Time: It's a good week to begin with~

Sharks! >> 5000 barrier

white, pink and yellow!!! The story of "THE ONE"

eh.. i should be stardeeing!

KT-inG. ^&!&)_*)!#%!@+$ and then i was THINKING

"FAN ren" we are just mortals afterall ...

and then it dawn on me, i am an empath

k!, now i'm mad and PMS mode is on FULL BLAST!!!

a DE? Inspirating Thought!

Suzuka - 14, i learnt dubbing subtitles!

WO Season II

random thoughts|--> the invicible element: WO - women

thur's gd! fri's gd too!

wed's a bad day~ yucK!

shit

5 people i meet in heaven ... devilcatz aka moonlighter is happY

and then i reliease tt i am old ... an end...

Children Day and I'm feeling so happY!

i've never lie.... for as long i've remembered.... who cares anyway? [goodbye september]

worried!!! mug,stardee,U

de-lusion

【sad or happy? i am torn in btw】K! 空无一人的城市 。。。

【 乱乱乱 K 。。。烦烦烦 K 。。。】K! 空无一人的城市 。。。

irony

moonlight: the royal archives ......

【sad or happy? i am torn in btw】K! 空无一人的城市。。。

【乱乱乱 K 。。。烦烦烦 K 。。。】K! 空无一人的城市。。。